Isaiah 47:11
“A calamity will fall upon you that you cannot ward off with a ransom; a catastrophe you cannot foresee will suddenly come upon you.”
Conversation
Papa, I love You and I worship You with all that I am. You are so Great -words cannot express how Holy and wonderful You are.
Come My daughter, abide in Me and My words will abide in you. You are Mine and I am well pleased with you. Come closer My faithful one.
Papa, my heart is overflowing with thankfulness for You and for all that You’re doing in my heart and in my life. You are worthy to be praised. You are worthy to receive the highest honour. I’m so desperate to be in Your presence, the only living and one true God.
Come My darling, for you are Mine and I am well pleased with you.
Reflection
Hello everyone, welcome to today’s page in my journal! The Lord wakes me up most nights at certain times after He’s given me a dream, which I sometimes don’t know the meaning of but other times I do, and it’s such a great comfort to my heart. I absolutely love sharing what God is doing in my heart, hoping it’ll inspire you to spend time with God everyday and grow the most fulfilling relationship with Him!
I have so much to write.. I think I could write all night to say it all… On August 4th I woke up at 4:26 with these lyrics in my heart, “I am who you say I am; you crown me with confidence undefeated” Yesterday, September 5th, 5:55AM, I woke up having dreamt that I vaguely saw a long table that I had been sitting at, eating with some other people, including Jesus (God). I had gotten up from the table and was about 10 feet away, and Jesus (God) was close to me and had walked from the table with me. He was sending me off to run; I had a sense like it was God Himself telling me something, one word at a time; He said, “I’ll deal with hell; you run!” I have the fear of the Lord in my heart right now (not actual fear, but in awe of Him), and I don’t want to and don’t dare to disobey. I’m actually also feeling more determined and bold in my heart because of hearing his voice. I know that God is talking about putting my message together, which I’ve been diligently working on. Sadly I won’t be ready to record tomorrow, but I’m building my message and it’s going great. Sometimes I feel overwhelmed, knowing that God really does want me to do this and He really sees me and He really knows me by name and I really am His daughter and He really does love me and He really is very close to me. He really is directing my life.. I’m in such awe of Him!
Then the scene completely changed where I was climbing steep stairs with Jesus my husband?, climbing up into a high tower that reminds me of a watch tower by the ocean, except we weren’t by the ocean in my dream. There was a level where most of the people were (I had a feeling like I was with the people who work in my church.). Then we had started climbing higher and I saw someone (the feeling I had is that it was the person who’s on camera a lot). I vaguely saw but more sensed, her and another person walking down the stairs, talking, smiling, and we kept on climbing up. Up on the highest level was my main pastor’s office, and I felt such an awe that I was aloud to go up there because most people weren’t aloud to go up there. When we were at the top we needed to duck through a hole in the boards to get to the office, so I did and then I was standing in it. As I was standing there, looking at the floor, I had a knowing that that office wasn’t my actual main pastor’s office anymore and that he wasn’t there anymore. It looked and felt like he had moved out, like when a place needs tidying up after someone’s moved out of a house or room. I’m thinking this isn’t literal? It would be alarming if it was! I didn’t have a thought as to whose it was now. I saw that it was really bright and sunny outside; the front of the office was all open where windows would be, but it was more like a balcony that had a white round bar/railing, going across the entire opened area. The room itself wasn’t a really big room but still a big room for an office. In the middle of the “window” area the bar was lower than both sides, and as I stood looking down onto the crowd of people below (it looked like they were all facing one direction, to my right), I was a bit afraid of the height (afraid to fall) so I walked to my right where the bar was a bit higher. There were no coverings over the open “window” area.
Then I walked to the middle where the bar was lower and I yelled to my husband something like, “hon!” two times, and he didn’t hear me so I yelled his name, and then he heard me and looked up. I yelled, telling him that I’m going to go and put some clothes on (I said some specific things like underwear and a shirt, and as I was walking away from the opening area I added, “and a sweater,” to make it less personal because I knew everybody was listening. Then I was walking towards the stairs to go back down. Then I was in the stairwell with a group of kids. There were two boards that we were on as we were going down; one was higher and one was lower, but they were both connected by a nail (or something) that could make the two boards swivel. I was standing on the lower one and I noticed it wasn’t very secure, so I leaned all of myself onto the higher board so that my chest and arms were on it because I was afraid that the lower one was about to break off. Then when I was secure on the higher one, the lower one fell off and there was a boy about ten years old that had been on it, who fell onto the floor below (about 5 feet) and kind of fell on his face. I was concerned about him and quickly went to see if he was okay. He quickly got up and said he was okay. I could tell that he had gotten hurt a bit but was putting on a brave face.
Then the scene changed where we (Jesus my husband I think) had been away and had climbed back up the steep stairs, into the office. The office was empty (it was a bit dark; the lights were off I think) because it was after working hours, and I saw my dog Coco there; she had been waiting there for us. As we walked towards her, I said something like, “Did you think we’d forget you?” and she was happy to see us. We had gone there to pick her up.
The the scene completely changed where I was sanding among some adults, talking. A man standing kind of in front of me, facing me, asked me about my writing, if I had completed the big writing piece I had begun before. It felt like we had talked about it before and he was asking me about how it had gone. I said good. The feeling I had about this person was that he was so respectful and kind.. When I responded to him, I felt like I had hoped that he would have forgotten about my website because I had a lot of personal stuff written on it (not him personally, but I think the knowing about it represented the public, like by him asking, it was the public who was asking and knew about it, and I was nervous about that). In waking life I’m a bit nervous about it, but I know it’ll come.
Then the scene completely changed again where I saw a group of dogs (dog-sled, though I didn’t see any snow on the ground) that had just come in from being on a long journey, pulling a sled that was really heavy (I had a sense that their journey was done.). I sensed there were two rows of dogs that were linked together, and about three dogs per side. I saw clearly one of the dogs; it was big and round like a bear with a lot of muscle, really strong. It had a really thick neck with lots of fur. The dogs were all panting, sitting on the ground or walking, maybe to get something they needed like food or water; something to bring them comfort and finally being able to rest. I saw there was a big dear or elk walking among the group; I saw the big antlers. It reminds me of the lyrics, “As a dear panteth for the water so my soul longeth after you…” My heart longs the most, to be closer to God my King, and then to Jesus..
This morning I awoke at 4:00 with the lyrics, “My God is with me I know He’s alive, how can I keep it inside?” (X2) Praise the Lord, oh my soul; Praise the Lord, oh my soul.” I also dreamt in the last few nights, I’m not sure which night it was, but I dreamt that I was pulling up a pair of light blue jeans that had stylish rips in them. Yay, I think it’s okay that I can wear something warm, and just in time!! I sensed about two weeks ago when I saw blue jeans that it was okay that I wear jeans again, so my dream about the light blue jeans is a confirmation. I was wondering what I’d do about that. Today I wore jeans to the dentist and it felt so good to wear jeans again! I’m surprised though that in my dream they were jeans with intentional rips; I’ve been thinking that I’m too old to wear those kinds of jeans, even though I’ve wanted to. As long as the rips aren’t too revealing.
We went to Mall of America Monday morning and saw the sights. There’s a U shaped ride among all the rides that remind me of the U shaped pastry I saw a little while back, and I’m so glad I didn’t need to go on that ride! I’d much rather go on those really high water slides that I went on at Noah’s Ark -thank-you Jesus!!!!!!! At the water park we all had the famous hotdog special, so good! At Target when we came back to the car I saw that there were two cars parked beside us with the licence plate numbers 357,537, thought that was so neat!! While at the mall Bella saw two identical necklaces for us to wear (these are not real gold though). Okay I think that’s it for now. I’m going to a funeral tomorrow afternoon. I think I’m almost finished my message, but not finished enough to record tomorrow:( The scripture above is what I opened my Bible to today. Meeting my sister at the funeral, then going for coffee with her, and maybe to Costco after that, I’m not sure yet. Many blessings…☕️☺️