Psalm 34:17
“The angel of the Lord encamps around those who fear him, and he delivers them.”
Conversation
Papa, I love you.
I love you Caroline.
Papa, I praise Your name. I worship You.
Come my daughter, rest, I am near to you.
Papa, I’m coming into a difficult time and I’m trying to figure out my emotions. I’m sad that it’s going this way but You’ve been preparing me for it.
I have.
Papa, draw me nearer into your heart. I want to know You more.
Then come, follow Me, and I will make you a fisher of men.
I’m glad You are Papa; I want to be a fisher of men. I want to be who You created me to be. And I want to do what You called me to do. I have a deeper sense of Your presence Papa than I did before, and I have more peace in my heart than I did before. Thank-you with all my heart.
I love you My faithful one. Come and rest, all is well with you. You are Mine and I delight in you.
Reflection
Hello everyone, welcome to today’s page in my journal! The Lord wakes me up most nights at certain times after He’s given me a dream, which I sometimes don’t know the meaning of but other times I do, and it’s such a great comfort to my heart. I absolutely love sharing what God is doing in my heart, hoping it’ll inspire you to spend time with God everyday and grow the most fulfilling relationship with Him!
Last night I didn’t get any dreams but I woke up at 1:28 with these lyrics in my heart, “It’s your love in my heart, running over. Every day of my life, I’ll draw closer. Such a perfect love, oh you lift me higher. Lighting up my way, everyday is brighter, with you, I am right where I belong, in this perfect love.” I only heard the first few lines but I continued to sing the rest of the song in my mind.
In my dream two nights ago it felt like I was with a small group of people. I was driving my car slowly, coming to a stop because the road in front of me had gotten to be too narrow for me to drive. I think it was because of things that were placed on the road; these things were placed beside one of the buildings but because the building was so close to the road, the stuff came out onto the road. My friend was following me close behind in their vehicle, and they stopped too because I had stopped. When I saw that the road was too narrow for me to drive, I was looking forward but I didn’t see my vehicle; it was as if the vehicle was me. I know that in dreams when we dream of vehicles, they do represent us. I vaguely remember getting out of my car and indicating for my friend to stop because I couldn’t go forward, but this part is vague.
Then I was looking up all around me and I saw very tall residential apartments that were all touching each-other with no space in between (I didn’t see the tops of the buildings). I had a knowing that this town was ancient and had no-one living in it. I saw that every building had old, wooden, single windows, the kind where we need to slide the glass part up to open it so the screen could let fresh air in; these are the kind of windows that I grew up having. I saw that every apartment was covered with these windows, with basically no space in between. I saw that every window was corroded around the frame and the beginning of the glass part because of age; I had a feeling like they were corroded shut but I’m not sure. And I saw that there was basically no paint left. I had a feeling that these apartments had been abandoned many years ago. There was a street in between these apartments. Normally from the outside of a building we can see where the floors are because of where the windows are; with these buildings I couldn’t see that; the windows were all in neat rows and columns and had very little space/wall in between each window. Every apartment in that town was like this, where windows covered the entire walls.
Then we were inside; I’m not sure if we were inside one of these apartments. To my right where we were standing, along the wall was a wide rounded bar. I think I could put both my arms around it and touch my fingers. Underneath the bar were places where kids could fall through if they weren’t carful, so I wanted to cover these places for them to be safe. Then I looked over the bar and I saw from a birds eye view, a very big dark green dense forest and something like a maze that went through it. I thought the forest looked beautiful and was in awe of it. We were far above the treetops. Then I backed away from the bar and exclaimed to my friend about the forest and that it was so far down. Then I looked again and saw that it wasn’t as far down as I saw before.
Then I was partway down, looking up at where I had stood and saw that it was very bright inside like the light was on, and I was standing in the dark. Between me and the room where we had been was a flattened area like a stable; I saw that a full grown horse was half laying down on the floor and was propping it’s head up, looking up at the room where my friend and I had been, and I was behind the horse. I also saw a walking path (that was the width that was made from walking on it over and over again, and there were plants and shrubs on both sides of it) that led down at a slant from the room to the stable. The path was kind of hidden and began from underneath the wide bar, leading right to the stable. The floor was smooth (and clean with no dirt on it) and looked like it was made out of flattened rock; the path and the stable floor were solid. I could kind of see the light reflecting on the path and stable floor. Then right at the end of my dream I was standing on the forest floor, looking up and saw that it was dark. I need to look more into what the specific things mean in order to know what the dream means as a whole. Very often the Lord will give me more of an understanding about them.
On a good note, a few years ago I dreamt that I saw an angel standing in front of my house. In waking life there isn’t a hydro line running across our front yard but in my dream there was. I saw an angel standing on the other side of the hydro line so he was facing me. There was a small bird sitting on the hydro line, and the angel was watching it, totally enjoying it, and I could tell that the angel really loved the bird. Then the bird flew away. The angel was taller than the height of the hydro line; the hydro line was about by his chest. Two nights ago I woke up at 3:17 with the lyrics, “Crown me with confidence.” I thought I also heard the word, swing, two nights ago right before waking up but I could be wrong. Tomorrow my kids and I are helping put candy into bags at church! Blessings..
October 28: I woke up at 5:55/56 and had dreamt that I had just gotten into the drivers side of my very expensive car, like a Ferrari (one where the door goes up to open, so I reached up with my hand to pull the door down to shut it). My kids were already sitting in the back seat. We had just gone shopping and I had a knowing that my kids had stolen about 1/2 a sandwich bag of white powder/drugs. I wanted to get them to bring it back, but I didn’t want them to get into trouble so I was in a hurry to get away. Then I was at the entrance (I saw the wide opened door) of the inside of a parking lot, facing the direction to go out. I felt the last part of stopping from having gone very fast; I could feel the power of the motor. Then I had driven outside and stopped right in the middle of a crosswalk, and there were many people walking all around us, walking across the street from the left side going to the right. I noticed one woman in particular; she smiled and politely began walking around my car, going to the front. I was just about to begin driving again when my dream ended. I’m not sure what this dream represents, but because in my dream I drove a very expensive car I think it means that in the past many years I’ve worked so hard with following where Jesus is leading and have literally given my life to God that it’s become very expensive; to follow God/Jesus has come at a very high cost, but I wouldn’t want to live my life any other way.. When my life is over here on earth, I’m fully confident and have peace in my heart that as I stand before God in heaven, I know that I’m going to see a smile on his face. I know that God is going to tell me that he is pleased with me and that I did well; I’m so far from perfect and I’m glad I am because I don’t want pride to get in my way from growing close to God, but because of my journey with Him, I have confidence in this. I can definitely identify areas where I could have done better and can still do better, so this is still my hope that I can do better.
Today after my kids and I went to church to help with putting candy into bags (reminding me about the dream where I brought a small empty box of smarties and some chocolates to someone), we went to several places and it reminded me of a maze; normally I try and go to stores that are in the same area before I head into another area, but today it was different. Then at home we watched Jungle Cruise (boat on the Amazon river). I was reminded again about the dream with the thick woods that had a maze inside; her map on her arm and the Amazon was like a maze. Also her brown boots, and she couldn’t find the tree without him. She stole the brown thing on her necklace (don’t remember what it’s called), and in my dream my kids stole the powder. I really don’t know what the white drugs represent. But I’m feeling guilty about not subbing; I’ve been so busy writing and working on trying to put my message together and making it better that it’s taken up most of my time. Maybe I’m selfish about not wanting difficulties in life; I heard someone talking about that and I understood right away what they meant. We watched another episode of Ahsoka, where (I don’t remember the names) they took her to another planet and she found her friend. Last week we watched, “Around the world in 80 days;” thinking about volunteering at the World Cafe, and thinking about how God is going to use our story to bring many others closer to him. Blessings…
October 29th: This morning I woke up at 6:11 and I heard lyrics in my heart but I fell asleep again. When I woke up shortly after I heard these lyrics in my heart, “You go before us, nothing can stand against the power of our God. An Almighty Fortress…” I had a quick dream where at first I think I was sitting but then I was standing. I was looking up at someone and they were standing right in front of or beside me, looking down at me. They were urgently saying something about me that I was going to have a heart attack. All of a sudden I could feel my heart slowing down and I began to faint and fall to the floor. The person right away was helping me, holding me so I wouldn’t hurt myself as I fell.