Isaiah 43:13
“Yes, and from ancient days I am he. No one can deliver out of my hand. When I act, who can reverse it?”
Conversation
Papa, I love You. I worship You. Today was a good day and I thank You for it.
I love you My dear one. Come closer, you are Mine.
Papa, donYou have a word for me today?
You are loved.
Thank-you Papa. I’m so thankful and I feel content.
Go in Peace My faithful one; you are Mine.
Reflection
Hello everyone, welcome to today’s page in my journal! The Lord wakes me up most nights at certain times after He’s given me a dream, which I sometimes don’t know the meaning of but other times I do, and it’s such a great comfort to my heart. I absolutely love sharing what God is doing in my heart, hoping it’ll inspire you to spend time with God everyday and grow the most fulfilling relationship with Him!
December 28: 5:28 (I think) This morning when I woke up I sensed that what I had dreamt was very important but I couldn’t remember what it was. I had also looked at the time and shortly after I couldn’t remember the exact time, but I thought it was right before 5:30. This morning at about 5:40 I began praying in the spirit because I felt that what I dreamt was very important, and I really wanted God to bring it to mind so began praying; I first prayed for God to help me remember the dream, which I still don’t remember, and then I began praying for Bella and my heart began to sob, and then for Lucas and the same thing happened. Then I thought to pray for my husband so I began praying for him. Then I began praying for the leaders in my church, including myself that God would help me to know how to walk forward, and then I prayed for what God is doing in our church. I accepted my role in it and got on board, wanting to be part of what God is doing in our church and what He’ll be doing through our church to impact the world. I feel that this is what the miniature Lion represents that I had dreamt about that was on the board! God is growing in my heart and I want to be part of what He’s doing in my church; God is moving and I’m on board!!
Then around 7:00 I went back to bed and woke up with my alarm at 9:00 and heard these lyrics, “Its Christmas, the angels are singing, Joy to the world!”
I dreamt that I was sitting behind the drivers seat and we had just driven into someone’s garage. I saw that we had parked really close to the other vehicle (The other vehicle was on my left side, and I was sitting on the left side behind the driver). Then the people who were in the truck (our SUV) had gotten out and I had my door open to go out. Then I had a thought to move the truck over like I could put both my legs on either side of the truck and lift the truck over, but then I knew for me to do that would be impossible. I looked behind us to see if we could back up and re-park, but I saw that the garage doors were already shut. Then I looked to the vehicle beside us and saw through their window a scrunched up funny face moving around, with their tongue kind of peeking out, making a face at me so I did the same. I thought it was my mother in law. Then the next moment I was standing right in front of my dad and I realized it had been my dad who had made the funny face. In waking life that’s what he often did! Then I was hugging him (we were hugging each other) around his big belly like he was Santa, and I was looking up at him, smiling; he was so tall and such a big person. We kept on looking at each-other, smiling. Then he leaned back, which made me lean into him even more, and we kept on hugging each other, smiling, never looking away. I saw my mom in the background about ten feet in front of me, behind my dad, walking around and not looking at us like when people avoid looking at two people in love who are totally mesmerized with each other. I have a feeling like my dad represents Jesus my husband (and Holy Spirit, completely open with following where He wants to lead), and that we are deeply connected, completely open heart to heart and deeply in love…
I also had a quick picture of big golden coins that were placed neatly in rows to form a Christmas tree. The golden coins remind me of those chocolate coins that are wrapped in gold coloured wrappers. I saw it vaguely and saw about 3 rows (1 at the top, then what stood out to me was a few rows down, the row that had about three or four of these coins. I’m not certain about exact numbers, but I saw these large golden coins that were placed neatly in rows and was shaped in the shape of a Christmas tree, which I also felt like it was meant to represent a Christmas tree. Our gathering today went really well; I had a good time. This evening we watched Running Wild with Bear Grylls again; I watched the last half of the one with Danika and the Moab Desert. Just quickly saying that I told my husband last week that I’d start subbing again in the New Year. I actually enjoy subbing when I have a good class. Sorry this is so late; I need to post every day that God gives me a dream because I want to keep up. Anyway, I’m excited that I dreamt about a christmas tree; I think it represents that God will give us our gifts!! I think that the Holy Spirit is causing me to pursue Him more, and in order for me to be more passionate about him, I need to pursue Him more. This is waking me up! Good night, many blessings…
December 29: This morning I woke up at 7:20 with lyrics from the song Closer by Brandon Lake, “I need Your love like I need water, mmm mmm, I need your love like I need breath inside of my lungs. Burnin my heart just like a fire, come and take me over, Jesus draw me closer to your heart, Your heart, Your heart. It’s where I wanna be forever, In Your heart, Your heart, Your heart. ‘Cause I don’t wanna move without you. I just wanna be in your heart, your heart, your heart (Lord). (The italics are specifically the words I heard in my heart.)
Yesterday in the elephant game at my gathering I got 3 home-made goat milk bars of soap and a scarf. I always used to use goat milk soap, and my sister-in-law makes them instead of buying them because they’re more expensive now than they used to be. I also got a red and black plaid christmas scarf. In the dream I had two nights ago about hugging my dad, it also reminds me of preparing a whole meal because he had a big belly (in waking life he never had a big belly); soup, apple pie, jam jams, chips and home-made salsa.. planning on bringing these for the christmas dinner. Changing the subject, people would call my dad a friendly giant; he was tall and was also a kind and patient man -he was the kindest man I knew, and I can see that Jesus my husband is like that.. that he is the kindest man I know. Even though my dad hardly spoke, he was still the most important person in my life (next to my mom, but I was a daddy’s girl). Jesus my husband measures up to him in my heart.. and that’s saying a lot.. I think the dream also represents that what seemed so scary and big to me before (my calling), doesn’t seem so scary anymore. I’m embracing it, loving it and stepping into it as I keep following Holy Spirit! I’m not sure if I wrote about this, thinking that I forgot; I had a dream where someone was pulling a wagon behind their vehicle or something, that was filled with groceries! None of it was in bags; all the food was out in the open. The only thing that stood out to me from all the groceries were two loaves of bread. One was at the top and the other was somewhere close to the top. On boxing day Lucas bought a game, Zelda, which he’s been playing almost non-stop. When he’s not creating music, he’s playing the game. The house I dreamt about where the ball landed reminds me of a house I used to live in, in Steinbach. I had a roommate who was about ten years older than me. She was really nice. I lived in town with her when I moved out of the place I was babysitting for. So while I was living in town I had two jobs; twice a week from 6:00 to 11, I would bake (Bakeworld). Then I’d run home which was a few blocks away and shower and get ready to work at the salon which was right next to the back of the bakery (back to back; the bakery still is in the mall and the back door faces the back of the salon.). Then I’d work at the salon from 1:00-9:00. My roommate was really nice, and she also worked at the bakery. When I left I didn’t show any emotion for some reason; I have no idea why I’d do that to her. Nothing bad happened between us so I’m not sure what I was thinking. I think I couldn’t make a months rent payment and then I gave my younger brother my really nice bike, and she confronted me about it. I think I took her niceness for-granted. This was soon after I graduated from high school and I had already taken two classes from Providence Bible College (Bible study methods and New Testament). I moved back home. Anyway, I just wanted to say that in the dream I had when I was high in the air and I saw where the ball landed in the back of that house, I needed to go to the house but I needed to walk there from the street I was on if I was on the ground. It would mean that I’d walk a half a block (to my right because I was facing the house), then turn left and walk to the second street, then turn left again and walk to the house which was about halfway down the street. So it would make a sideways U shape; in my dream I wasn’t thinking to cut across to shorten my walk.. this is just an observation about my dream. I’m praying that I’ll be ready and able to sense the leading of the Holy Spirit this Sunday. Many blessings…