“But the eyes of the Lord are on those who fear him, on those whose hope is in his unfailing love…” Psalm 33:18
“Papa, I love You. Thank You for who You are. I worship and adore You. You are everything I need. In You I lack nothing.
Come My daughter, follow Me and I will make you a fisher of man.
Papa, I pray for wisdom, understanding and courage. Wisdom so I make fewer mistakes, understanding and revelation to know Your heart in every situation of my life, and courage to step into all You have for me. Help me to teach my children what You are teaching me, and I want to be a fisher of man.
Come My daughter and rest, all is well with you. You are Mine.
Reflection
Hello and welcome to my journal. Life in the valley can be very difficult, but we need to remember that God is always faithful. Right now I’m in a valley, being tested and pruned so that in God’s time I’ll be ready to walk out of this valley, Victorious! What I’ve been doing as I’m waiting is spending time with God and keeping on doing what He’s already asked me to do. I’m clinging onto hope because God is my firm foundation. God is faithful and I know that He will never let me down, and I’m going to stay faithful to Him. He has shown me His faithfulness all the time and I know His love through that. God gives me dreams and wakes me up at certain times. As you read my journal my hope is that even though I’m in a valley in my life, I hope you will be inspired to always keep your heart open to God no matter what’s going on in your life, because God is a God of Love and He always has a Good plan for our life. He knows how to lead us; we just need to trust Him and follow Him! Very often God draws my heart to Him through love songs and intimacy with Him in dreams, because as part of the bride of Christ, Jesus is my husband. My love for God/Jesus keeps on growing as I continue to pursue Him. During the night God wakes me up at certain times with either a word from Him and/or a dream. So here’s my journal entry for today..
1:29 “Yes My daughter, all is well.”
1:30 I love you
1:32 My daughter rest, all is well. You are Mine.
1:34 Come
2:09 P
2:50 Come, rest
3:13 Rest
3:15 Peace? I have a sense of peace in my heart. I trust in God.
3:21 I had been worrying but I feel peace in my heart again.
3:23 Come My darling and rest.
3:31 “..underneath my breath, you heard it darling you look perfect tonight.” (bride of Christ; intimacy with Jesus)
3:36 I met a woman, stronger than anyone I know. She shares my dreams I hope than one day, I’ll share her home…(bride of Christ; intimacy with Jesus)
3:49 I saw purple
4:00 this weekend
In a vision I saw two friends going to walk through a door together. I saw a woman with her friend.
4:03 “Is Carolyn home?”
4:01 A feeling that God wants everyone to “be in good health”(heard in my heart)
4:17 In a vision I saw my brother P on the street in front of my house. He was wearing a blue jacket with a red hoodie, smiling and waving at me. He was pulling a child in a sled.
4:26 I saw a strong brown horse in full gallop
4:32 rock this little girls heart
4:39 I saw a woman giving someone a hug, feeling like I was getting a hug.
4:44 Pumpkin
4:48 I saw someone working on a new house, he was covering a whole in the wall in the front of the house.
4:55 house?
5:00 biting into an avocado
5:05 I saw I was wearing my white housecoat. I saw my sleeve, and I think I was holding something green like an avocado
5:27 stairs leading up and cake being cut into.
5:30 “I’ll share her home, I found a lover, to carry more than just my secrets… (bride of Christ, reflecting intimacy with Jesus)
This is my 700th Post!!! Yesterday I finished my book! Today my kids dad and I went to WAG and watched the movie he worked on. It’s called The Nest. It’s about four women who told their life story, or the story of someone in their ancestry who made a difference in society because of their bravery. They filmed it in the house that they all lived in at some point in their lives, and they call the house, the nest. We enjoyed a bit of charcuterie, and the coffee was great! Then we went to a restaurant called Viva where I had a dish that had charcoaled pork on the top. My heart is hopeful… Love and Blessings…🙏🏻
January 12:3:45 “I know we’ll be all right this time. Darling just hold my hand, be my girl I’ll be your man…” (Bride of Christ)
6:13 “I found a woman, stronger than anyone I know. She shares my dreams I hope that someday I’ll share her home…” (Bride of Christ)
6:18 I’ll share her home (Bride of Christ)
6:35 “Will you marry me?” (Bride of Christ. Yes Jesus I will marry you!!!)
8:00 I found a lover, to carry more than just my secrets. To carry love, to carry children of our own. Yes we’re just kids but we’re so in love…(Bride of Christ)
8:13 “This everyday food is our snack.”I saw a slice of layered cake on a plate. In the cake I saw chocolate and two white layers. ❤️🔥🫰🏼🙏🏼
Im not sure how my morning went in terms of understanding. I’m hoping with reconciliation I won’t need to do things that I’ll get into trouble for. It’s so hard on my family, myself and others around me.. I’ll write more tomorrow, blessings…
January 13: 12:40 “King You have my heart.
2:26 Not gonna let fear talk me out of, your love for me I’m not gonna let pain talk me out of, your love for me.
2:40 “Baby I’m, dancing in the dark, with you between my arms, barefoot on the grass, listening to our favourite song. When you said you looked a mess, I whispered underneath my breath you heard it, darling you look perfect tonight.”
7:00 Jesus was sitting in a chair and I was giving him a baby boy. As I was leaning over, my arms, with the baby, fell onto him because of the baby’s weight. I think I had already given him a baby boy, so it felt like he had two baby boys in his arms.
I dreamt that I was inside a van. I looked and saw a driver in the drivers seat. In the vehicle I was in there was a huge mess. There were others in the van and I was thinking how to give everyone a seat. So then I said something to have everyone help to clean the mess so that we could put the seats upright (to give everyone a seat. Then I must have slept and when I awoke all the mess was gone. There was an area with a bed and I was amazed how neatly the bed was made.
7:45 “sleeping” “she looks perfect tonight.”
I’m feeling like I’m such a burden to people. Today at 10:47 I heard in my heart the Lord say, come, and I could hardly understand why He would still ask me to come. A part of a dream I forgot to write about was, I found a small ceramic figure that was broken; I found the feet and a bit of the legs, and then the person who was with me (the companion I always have with me in my dreams, maybe Holy Spirit or Jesus…) found the missing piece (the upper body), but the upper body had the face and the front part missing. I’m wondering if it’s true that I’m already walking in my calling, and that God is getting me ready for the next step? It feels wrong to apply for work; feeling like I’m turning my back on God if I do. I’m wondering if this is one of my misinterpretations? Because I’m so eager to do what God wants me to do… Goodnight…