“I have been crucified with Christ, and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loves me and gave Himself for me.”
Galatians 2:20
Conversation
Papa, I love You and worship You. You are worthy to be praised. You are Holy Papa and I was made by You, for You to be near You. So draw me nearer to Your heart and transform me to be more like You so that I can walk in the purpose You’ve given me.
Come My faithful one; I am near to you, to the broken hearted. Come all those who are weary and I will give you rest. You are Mine declares the Lord God Almighty.
Reflection
Hello and welcome to my journal. Life in the valley can be very difficult, but we need to remember that God is always faithful. Right now I’m in a valley, being tested and pruned so that in God’s time I’ll be ready to walk out of this valley, Victorious! What I’ve been doing as I’m waiting is spending time with God and keeping on doing what He’s already asked me to do. I’m clinging onto hope because God is my firm foundation. God is faithful and I know that He will never let me down, and I’m going to stay faithful to Him. He has shown me His faithfulness all the time and I know His love through that. God gives me dreams and wakes me up at certain times. As you read my journal my hope is that even though I’m in a valley in my life, I hope you will be inspired to always keep your heart open to God no matter what’s going on in your life, because God is a God of Love and He always has a Good plan for our life. He knows how to lead us; we just need to trust Him and follow Him! Very often God draws my heart to Him through love songs and intimacy with Him in dreams, because as part of the bride of Christ, Jesus is my husband. My love for God/Jesus keeps on growing as I continue to pursue Him. During the night God wakes me up at certain times with either a word from Him and/or a dream. So here’s my journal entry for today..
2:40 “This is, the day You have made. It’s more than enough, more than enough for me. You are faithful to Your promise You are strong when I am weak. When I stand here in Your presence I have everything I need. The joy of the Lord, the joy of the Lord is my strength!!”
I had a vague dream where there were three people walking and someone was walking in the middle.
4:30 “This is the day you have made. Let us rejoice, rejoice and be glad in it.”
4:47 In my prayer time downstairs I heard something in my heart about wanting to hear the story.
4:53 In a dream (I fell asleep while praying), seeing some people putting a big bag of ice on their heads.
5:08 “I belong” I heard in my heart.
5:42 “More than enough for me” I fell asleep and heard this in my heart right before I awoke.
7:34 “..with faith like the grain of mustard seed, I wonder what you could do with me.”
In a dream I had a few pumpkin cookies left. I gave one to two people. I saw two of my friends who were hoping to get one and were waiting on the side. Then there was half of a cookie left and I wasn’t sure who to give it to and I don’t know if I gave it to that person but they took it and my friends were disappointed. I’m thinking to bake more tomorrow. I will always follow Jesus, even if I don’t get it right all the time. Lucas’ band is playing at the Convention Centre in two weeks and Bella’s also. I’m taking my mom to her cataract surgery appointment that week, and Lucas is playing in a piano competition; it’ll be a busy week! Mission Fest will be great, looking forward to hearing the different speakers. My lower back is hurting again.. I made an omelet for Bella for breakfast this morning (later for myself too), and I made banana muffins. I made perogies, sausages, gravy and corn for supper today:) I went to Shopgym yesterday and we bench pressed and rowed. Lucas worked this evening; he works as a line cook so he normally brings poutine home:) Blessings…
February 7: 10:45 I saw a car “step” down onto a gravel parking lot. The parking lot was a few feet down from the ground and the car was facing me as the left side front and back “stepped” down to go onto the parking lot.
11:11 “If I could turn back the clock”
3:44 “I’d climb every mountain” I had a vague picture of light blue…
4:53 “Margo”
8:20 I had a dream of seeing someone with their thumb pointing back.
8:04 “completely broken”
11:21 I had a vision of a woman with long brown hair wearing a red skirt and blue jean jacket get up from sitting; I was behind her.
February 8:5:58 “Your name stands above them all. All throne’s and dominions all powers and positions Your name, stands above them all.”
6:18 “If you walk in freedom, if you bear His name, sing this song forever to the Lamb.”
6:40 “Take every thought captive”
6:58 “You must obey him” A vision of being in a small room and seeing a piece of woman’s clothing hanging on something that was on the table.
7:32 I saw in a dream a hearing aid in someone’s ear. The hearing aid was only inside the persons ear, molded to fit exactly. It didn’t have the part that normally goes around or behind the ear.
7:35 “Sing this song forever to the Lamb”
8:15 “airport understand” (I think)
8:18 “right in the middle” (I think this is the time where I heard this)
8:47 “and amen “ seeing an opened photo album and seeing photos of teens celebrating.”
8:52 I had a sense of Jesus’ love…
9:04 “And the angels cry, holy, all creation cries, holy. You are lifted high, holy, holy forever”
9:13 “I ordered it right”
I also had a picture of an album that had light blue writing on the left page (and left side as it lay open in front of me) and on the right there was black writing at the top and purple writing underneath, and this page was right in front of me. I made stew for supper yesterday. Blessings…
February 9:6:08 … lift you up and up again.”
7:14 “please” I had a vision of being in a grocery store and I saw someone’s line of boxes with food as they were organizing it or moving one box at a time. There was someone who kind of walked in their way so the person said “please” to that person, and that person stepped out of their way.
7:25 In my vision I heard someone tell their story, and I heard them say something about their dad.
7:35 In a vision I saw an athletic team standing together, and Lucas was on the team.
8:05 I dreamt there was a snow storm, seeing white snowflakes in the wind. I was drinking a glass of water quickly. Bella’s friend was over and I was thinking that it was good that they made it into town before the storm. After I drank the water quickly I was putting my glass down onto the counter at my regular spot, and I could see four or five glasses there that I had used.
8:09 “Mercy and the cross” I heard in my heart someone singing this right before waking up.
8:46 “I pick you up and up again.”
February 10: 11:56 in a vision I saw someone carrying a harp , walking on the sidewalk towards me, right in front of me.
12:01 “ya”
12:06 “4 made it too”
12;26 “I know there is peace within your presence, I need Jesus. Your name is power, your name is greater Your name, stands above them all.”
I dreamt someone was driving a vehicle on the edge of a cliff and the road became so narrow, tapering off to not being a road, that as they were backing up they fell off a cliff. (feeling like this weekend it could have been done)
Another dream where I was sitting in a chair inside a house and someone who was driving by saw me. I crouched down a bit but they still kept on looking at me through the window. Then the scene changed where they had come into the building and began skinning the person who was sitting close to me. I could see their brown skin on their face being turned inside out. I saw that the person had new skin underneath as I saw part of their face as the old skin was nearly pulled off. I was alarmed. I had another dream about being in a place where they take showers; I saw steam. I understand that the old skin needs to be pulled off; easier said than done…