“I love you O Lord, my strength. The Lord is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge. He is my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold. I call to the Lord, who is worthy of praise, and I am saved from my enemies.” Psalm 18:1-3
Conversation
Papa, I love You Lord, and I lift my voice, to worship You. Oh my soul rejoice. Take joy my King, in what You hear. Let it be a sweet, sweet sound, in your ear. Papa please forgive me for not focusing on You but on Your promised gift; I know this is true.
Come
I’ve been afraid of not being able to hear Your voice so I’ve not been giving You my undivided attention.
I forgive you My daughter. Come and rest; I will speak with you.
I’m sensing the words “dignity restored.” Papa I feel like all my dignity has been stripped away.
Come My darling, rest. I am near.
Reflection
Hello and welcome to my journal. Life in the valley can be very difficult, but we need to remember that God is always faithful. Right now I’m in a valley, being tested and pruned so that in God’s time I’ll be ready to walk out of this valley, Victorious. What I’ve been doing as I’m waiting is spending time with God and keeping on doing what He’s already asked me to do. I’m clinging onto hope because God is my firm foundation. God is faithful and I know that He will never let me down, and I’m going to stay faithful to Him. He has shown me His faithfulness all the time and I know His love through that. God gives me dreams and wakes me up at certain times. As you read my journal my hope is that even though I’m in a valley in my life, I hope you will be inspired to always keep your heart open to God no matter what’s going on in your life, because God is a God of Love and He always has a Good plan for our life. He knows how to lead us; we just need to trust Him and follow Him! Very often God draws my heart to Him through songs and intimacy with Him in dreams, because as part of the bride of Christ, Jesus is my husband. My love for God/Jesus keeps on growing as I continue to pursue Him. During the night God wakes me up at certain times with either a word from Him and/or a dream. So here’s my journal entry for today.
2:16 A vision of young trees that were just planted that had white rocks around them.
2:49 “I love you Lord, and I lift my voice. To worship You, oh my soul rejoice. Take joy my King, in what You hear. Let it be a sweat sweet sound, in your ear.” I dreamt that I was taking a bath and I was singing in the bathtub.. my parents were sleeping in the room beside the bathroom and I wondered if they heard me. The light was off and I was beginning to get up and I opened my eyes, thinking I was going to put the lamp light on.
3:00 “It would be easier if you would see the doctor. Bipolar.”
5:02 You catch me when I fall, catch me when I fall. Trying to be okay…
5:20 “Call on the name of the Lord”
4:28 “You catch me when I fall, you catch me when I fall.”