Isaiah 35:6
“Then will the lame leap like a deer, and the mute tongue shout for joy. Water will gush forth in the wilderness and streams in the desert.”
Hello everyone, welcome to today’s page in my journal! The Lord wakes me up most nights at certain times after He’s given me a dream, which I sometimes don’t know the meaning of but other times I do, and it’s such a great comfort to my heart. I absolutely love sharing what God is doing in my heart, hoping it’ll inspire you to spend time with God everyday and grow the most fulfilling relationship with Him! If you’ve been following my post for awhile you’ll see that the layout for this post is slightly different. The last few nights the Lord has been waking me up in the middle of the night to spend time with Him. I have my phone right beside my bed and so I take notes about what I sense God telling me throughout the night, so it may look a bit messy, but if you’re okay with that and would like to read my journal with the Lord, then welcome!
I’m finding that my time with God at night has been more enriching than it’s been for a long time, and I think it has to do with giving up sleep, which I used to do when my kids were really little. I’m at a place in my life where I’ve realized that I haven’t been pursuing God as much as I’m able to, so I’m beginning this year by leaping into the arms of God in my heart every day, desperately needing to know Him better so that my heart can trust Him more and believe in Him more. I don’t want any unbelief in any part of my heart, because unbelief stops me from trusting and following His lead. I know I missed His timing for something because I wasn’t totally ready (I wasn’t pursuing Him as much as I should have been doing), so now I’m sensing that I’m making another loop of training. I’m more than sad about that, but since then my heart has been put into the right place where I’m seeking Him first, ahead of everything else, and I’m going to be ready for the next time!!
Notes, Thoughts and Conversation
January 5: 11:21: We were in a van. I was sitting in the row behind Jesus my husband who was sitting to my right a bit, at a slant (if I would be sitting in his row, we’d be sitting beside each other), and he was looking directly at me. I was looking forward at him but it was like my eyes were opened and our eyes met and held, and he was yawning. He had a white toque on that covered all his hair. I also saw the white in his beard. I was pleasantly surprised that he was sitting so close to me and that he looked at me for so long.. and now I have butterflies in my stomach…
11:43 I woke up with a start
I didn’t write this dream down right away so I don’t remember what the time was, but it was close to the other times that I woke up in the beginning of the night. I dreamt that there were a lot of tall curtains and there was something inside the folds of them on the floor. I was with someone and we were gently pushing the curtains to the side to see what was in the folds. I vaguely sensed someone sitting further back behind them, waiting and watching.
1:58 I heard in my heart, “I want you to meet my family”
Conversation while praying in the spirit:
2:30: Come my darling, it’s time
I’m listening Papa (I heard this in my heart so I said it)
Rise up my daughter, it’s time
Papa
Come, you are Mine and I love you.
Papa, I wanna know Your heart
You will find me when you seek me with all your heart.
3:15 Papa, I want to be caught again, by you Jesus, by You Papa. I feel your presence, your love deep in my heart. Thank you Papa. Thank you.
4:05 (When I pray downstairs at night, there’s a white mattress on the floor in front of the couch, so I laid down to sleep) I dreamt that I was walking outside with someone, sensing them, and I saw two big shrubs/plants close beside each other. In between them was another plant that was connecting the two, making it look like one plant. I saw that the plant that was connecting the two was curved on each end, looking like an S, and was going over one and under the other, blending into both of them. It reminds me of a hook!! I’m hoping and praying that this means that I’ve been caught again…
6:42 I heard the word, Sacramento. I have no idea what it means and will look it up. In my dream I was at Costco and I saw pastor M there and we were talking and I was very comfortable talking with him. It was like talking with a good friend. We were by the cash register and I was paying for something. Then we were still talking as we walked to where our vehicles were, in line waiting for a car wash. Then we had come to a truck (I think one of his kids truck or his I’m not sure, that had an open box in the back. It was filled with people, adults and some kids) sitting in it. He asked them if they were okay. The way he asked them you could tell that he was a very kind person who was genuinely concerned if they were okay. Then I think they responded that they were okay and I needed to go to my white car. I had parked just inside the first part of the entrance to the car wash; I had gone there to wash the car but parked because they had closed the door for an hour for lunch, so I thought I’d leave my car there and go into Costco to eat, walk around and buy some stuff and look around. I was walking to my car and saw the person who we needed to get a number/ticket from and because I had been talking, by the time I got to her it was too late because it was full. I saw her hand out the last ticket and I was so sad. She felt bad for me. Then as I was walking out someone picked up a wallet that someone had dropped and stuck it into a wedge between the wall and some kind of cupboard, clearly visible, and walked away. So I stuck my hand in and took it out of the wedge. It was a brown wallet and I saw colourful money/ bills sticking out of it. A five and a ten. I said we need to bring it to someone and I brought it to a lady by a till. She was amazed at my honesty and as I walked away I laughed and said something like, “I could really use that.” Then I was standing by a counter and was about to leave when the lady at the car wash had walked to me and gave me a ticket, the last number for that time slot. I think there was going to be another time period where people could get their cars washed, but that would mean that I would need to wait again for them to open and I didn’t want to wait again. I think there was another thing I had to do, and I didn’t want to have to wait again. She felt sad for me and wanted to help me. I was so thankful!!
A scene where I saw a really high shelf and I was determined to get up there to grab something that reminds me of clear nail polish. I put a few things on top of each other to step onto and I numbed in top of them. As I was standing on top of them I looked down and saw that I was standing on a really big ball, balancing on it. I saw a few people watching and then I looked up to the shelf which was chest level now and I saw the thing I wanted to get and I quickly grabbed it, and then that part of the dream ended. Yes! Yes! Yes!!!
Then I was walking along a narrow ledge along a wall that had some stuff on it, and there was a guy standing on it later to the joining wall. I didn’t know this person so I wanted to climb down before I got to him, so I walked along the ledge a little and then went on this brown wooden board that took me out into the open, like how a fan goes around, and it took me into the middle of the room feeling fully exposed but it didn’t bother me to be out in the open. Then I climbed down from there, feeling agile and having a gladness of heart. I felt my feet standing on the floor and I think I began walking when this scene ended.
I was driving my suv to a garage. The truck had just gotten an oil change but My husband asked me to go back there again to add more oil (my message?). So I parked the truck and I saw that I had parked very close to two other expensive cars. Because I had parked so close I started the engine (I saw the long key in my right hand) to drive up a bit. Then I drove into some big round steel things (one big one, the other slightly smaller that was in the bigger one, and another smaller one inside that one) where the front right wheel went into them. So I needed to back up to get out of them. Then I thought I should drive onto the driveway, closer to the garage doors so that they could put more oil into the engine.
Then I was sitting on the floor, talking to a boy who knew me, and there were two other boys that were close by that the boy I was talking to g to, knew. I thought it was very special that that boy liked knowing me and liked talking with me.
Then a scene where I was going steeply down a narrow slide that I barely fit into. I had already started going down when I think I saw two girls begin to climb up, so I told them to wait until I went through (because I had already started, otherwise I’d let them come up first. So they went back out and I pushed through to the end, and then there was a short ways that had an open top so at that part I went a lot faster. I was laying on my back, looking up to see what kind of dip I’d have coming, I saw right at the end coming very quickly was a pool of water that the slide went to, so I braced myself for a splash and getting all wet. Then I did splash into the water about waist deep, and turned to the side of the pool to climb up onto the side of the pool to go up onto the floor. I had a two food items in my hand and had dropped one of them, a seasoned popcorn snack that was in plastic, so it hadn’t gotten wet. So I saw it on the side of the pool, and even though it had fallen into the water, the food itself was kept dry.
7;40 I saw black leather pants that had one pleat in it, in the middle in the front. I was holding them in my hands and in my dream I said something like, oh, but a long oh like I felt something for those pants, which were dress pants, not tights. (1319 characters)
7:51 I heard in my heart, “some say 3.”
7:59 I vaguely dreamt that I had made a leap, and I did that movement a little in waking life which gave me a start which woke me up. I felt my buttocks muscles in waking life. I leaped!!
8:03 I heard, “Aunty Connie came to my mind.” I was vaguely with someone that reminds me of Priscilla.
9:04 I knew the strategy about something. (1,711 words/characters)
I was planning to start my Daniel fast today, but I would really like to have some food tonight, leftovers if there is, so I’m not sure what to do. I hear in my heart to fast, so I’ll fast. But if there’s food to take home, which I regret not doing on Wednesday, then I’d love to take some home for the kids to enjoy, unless there’s something there that I can have. I’m beginning my fast today and the Daniel fast I’m following is on Kristen Feola’s website, which is the one Connie uses. I looked up the word, Sacramento; Sacrament in English! A religious ceremony or ritual such as a baptism. I feel like God has truly given me another chance and I am more thankful than words can say. Last night I was up almost all night (really enjoying my time with the Lord) and didn’t go to Shopgym. I felt not to go on Wednesday because of my fast. I’m going to the city now with Bella. Love you all, Many blessings…