Isaiah 44:3
“For I will pour water on the thirsty land, and streams on the dry ground; I will pour out my Spirit on your offspring, and my blessing on your descendants.”
Conversation
My Papa, I love You. I worship You and I bless You. You are so great! Thank-You for seeing me, hearing me, speaking to me, loving me, forgiving me and leading me. I have absolutely no life without You. You are everything to me. I love You and I adore You. I worship at Your feet. You are mine.
My daughter, come.
Papa, do You have a word for me today?
Rest -you are Mine.
Papa, I sensed the word,”deliverance” in my heart. What is it about deliverance that You want me to know? I now sense the verse, “Then you will know the truth and the truth will set you free.” (John 8:32)
Come My darling and follow Me, for I will make you a fisher of men. It’s time. Trust Me.
Papa, I trust You, but please help me trust in You in future difficulties. I know this is a lifelong task, to put my trust in You daily. Thinking about today, I put my trust in You as I pour out my heart to You to hear. Please lead me in my thinking and writing. I want to be free in every way that I”m being held back.
I love you My daughter. I will always help you.
Thank-You Papa. I love You too.
Reflection
Hi everyone.. welcome to today’s page in my journal! The Lord wakes me up most nights at certain times after He’s given me a dream, which I sometimes don’t know the meaning of but other times I do, and it’s such a great comfort to my heart. I absolutely love sharing what God is doing in my heart, hoping it’ll inspire you to spend time with God everyday and grow the most fulfilling relationship with Him!
I hope you are all having a good Christmas holiday!! Today we went to the Apple store to exchange the wrist band from medium/large to medium small, and the colour my husband got me which I kept is Starlight. I woke up early this morning at 5:31 with the Christmas song “Last Christmas, I gave you my heart but the very next day, you gave it away. This year, I’ll give it to someone special.” I had a few dreams last night, and I’m not sure about the order. I was standing at the stove and saw that I had put a pressure cooker into a pot of hot boiling water. The water was almost covering the top of the pressure cooker, and I thought I’d need to empty some of the hot water and walked towards it but then I saw that the water didn’t quiet come to the pressure outlet at the top, so then it was good and I thought I didn’t need to adjust it. In waking life I feel a lot of pressure to clean my heart by speaking out; The more I’m known, the deeper I’m loved and the deeper I’m trust falling.
In this next dream two of my friends and I drove to someone’s house to try on some clothes to buy. We were standing in the entrance, looking up at the owner of the house. He was standing on the main floor, about three steps up from where we were. I could hear that there were some people/women, upstairs, looking at and trying on some clothes. And the reason why we were just standing there was because the owner couldn’t have a lot of people up there at the same time. He had told us that there was another group of people there earlier, and in my dream I heard, “I told them to come back at 2:00.” He had told us that not all of us could go up at once, but that only one or two of us could go up now and the other would be able to go up when others had left. I pleaded with him with my eyes to let us all come up at once, and I’m not sure what his decision was because then the scene changed. I was changing in a changing room and had taken off my pants and underwear. I didn’t see what I was putting on. Then the scene changed again where I was in my husbands car (he had picked me up). I had gone with him and I hadn’t even told my friends that I was going with him. I was in the passenger side of the car and as we were driving I saw a black nail on the road, and I saw it go under the car as we were driving and thought that one of the tires had driven over it. I kind of felt it, and then my husband was pulling over to change the tire. Then the side door was open and as I was getting out I saw that I was wearing a black skirt that went just above my knees (not tight). I realized that I had left without telling my friends and realized I had left my pants and underwear at the house/store in the changing room.
Then I was in a school setting. It was break time and I was always the first person to quickly run out and run to the wall that had many keys hanging. I had a knowing that I had done this several times before, but this particular time I didn’t get out as fast and so there was a long line up of people/ teens waiting to get a key from that wall. I was thinking that by the time I’d get there this time, almost all the keys would be gone. Then I was running beside the line and I saw vaguely my sister in law (my husbands side), Kristal, standing in line, happily talking with the kids she was standing with. Then I noticed a big gap where there weren’t any kids, so I ran past that, it was clear for me to go, and then I was standing in front of the wall with all the keys. I reached out my hand and took one, and I was going to drive somewhere. The keys were keys to vehicles. I didn’t have a sense as to where I was going to go.
Then I had a quick dream that I was at church and I was running down the stairs, feeling like it was two at a time, in the sanctuary. Because of my momentum, I ran over one or two rows of chairs, putting my foot close to the top of one of the back rests and leaped over it with joy in my heart. I thought to myself that I can be just like Jesus, being so agile!! The reason I stepped out and said what I did, “Hi I’m a pastor, a pastor in training,” is because when I saw my pastor the day before at the Christmas event, as I was walking past him to leave, I felt a tug in my heart, sensing from the Lord to say something to him, hi maybe. Then that whole day I was thinking that maybe the Lord was leading me to say what Inhad said about being a pastor to him, and it was Sunday the day after so I thought I want to say it sooner rather than later because I don’t want to miss God’s timing in my life. So I did it!! Yay! Something that stood out to me in the sermon was the joke about mennonites and campfires, but when things stand out to me on the day of, it always has a vague feeling so it’s never very clear to me that I have to do something. So far I don’t know of anything I need to do this coming Sunday. I’m praying that I’ll be sensitive enough to the Holy Spirit so that I won’t miss anything. Many blessings to you….
December 27: 1:43 Dreamt that I saw a really little tiger that was the size of the palm of my hand; it was dehydrated, malnourished, really skinny and wrinkly, skin and bones. I was outside on the lawn, and its movement (about ten feet away) caught my eye so I went to go see what it was. Then I saw it laying on its side (now on a table or a light flat board) with no energy, barely surviving. The feeling I had was to give it food and water, and I had a knowing it would get healthier and stronger . So after I picked it up, (seeing that it was as long as the palm of my hand), I was going to bring it inside and revive it by giving it food and water. I believe that it represents the Lion inside my lungs, inside my heart!
6:13 Dreamt that I saw someone roll down. Someone was on a tall building, laying down and began to roll, bouncing off of other roofs until they landed in a soft pile of snow.
7:43 Someone was narrating as I was up high in the air , over a residential neighbourhood. As I heard someone talk I dropped something, maybe a ball I’m not sure. I watched it fall down to the ground below and it went exactly where the narrator said it would go. I saw it falling, hitting the ground and bouncing (only a few big bounces) until it landed in someone’s backyard (exactly as the narrator said it would) two streets away from where I was high in the air. I counted two streets, and the backyard it landed in was a house that was facing me, about in the middle of the block. I was looking carefully at the yard so I’d remember where it was (I needed to find it by walking from where I was if I’d be on the ground, and I needed to walk on the road/sidewalk all the way around.), and saw there was a yellow garage or something in the yard where it was. The yard was all fenced in and it landed underneath some trees in the backyard, hidden. I knew I needed to walk there and find the ball or whatever it was that I dropped. (Thinking this represents that I dropped the ball) God loves me and is freeing me; I’m under the fire of God.. God is refining me and even though it’s difficult, I so badly want this and want to be fully known!!! I’m going to pursue God to make it known to me what the house represents.
Then in another dream I was in a city on a business street and I climbed up a high mound of snow/ice that turned into a tree when I was at the top. Someone came out of the store who had been watching me, impressed at how agile I was as I effortlessly climbed to the top. I was high on it, on branches that had no leaves and I thought to reach up my hand to touch the tip but didn’t, and then the tree began leaning forward, bending so that it nearly touched the ground, (I saw that there was another person in it with me) and I think we were about to roll off of it when the dream ended.
Then I was with a group of people/ older teens, and some of them were going to go through a very deep inner healing. I had a sense the leaders were going to pray for them, and I was thinking/feeling that I wish I could be one of those people who could experience that, even though I was one of the leaders. I’ve been hoping that I would be able to take Ana Werner’s next Healing School (12 weeks) which begins December 30th, 2023-March 20th. There’s only one day left to register I think. I registered for it today..
Thinking about leaping over the backrest in another dream and almost running up a steep ice hill with agility, thinking about leaping into the new year with fasting early January. I’m going to fast all three days but I’m thinking to stay home. If I’m wrong and should come then I’m waiting to be corrected in my thinking. Tomorrow’s the gathering on my side at my mom’s condo building, for lunch to early evening. I had a pr last eeek when I lifted 175 lbs for deadlift! I actually wasn’t aiming to pr, and didn’t remember what my last pr was. I think I could have done more but we were getting ready to do the workout. Okay.. I’m planning to join the fasting and prayer in the Sanctuary, then the next day I have a Christmas dinner and the following evening I have a zoom meeting with my Pipline group. Makes sense also because I had dreamt that I had leaped over some chairs in the sanctuary!! Today Bella and I went to get a few more gifts (St Vital mall) for the elephant exchange for our gathering tomorrow, but of course we stopped at Starbucks on the way! I got a chestnut praline latte. Good night, Many blessings…