James 1:12
“Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.”
Conversation
Papa, I love You so very much. I love you and I worship You with all my heart. I feel like my heart is rapidly expanding -thank-You Holy Spirit!
I love you My daughter. Come, now is the time for refreshing. I will build my Spirit within you; I will build you up. Come My daughter, and rest.
Thank-You Papa for Your Mighty love in my heart. Thank-You for building me up. Thank-You for leading me to be able to rest; help me to be able to rest even more. I leap into Your Might arms; I know You will sustain me and sustain what You’ve started. I have full confidence in this.
I will sustain you My sweet daughter. Come, lets enjoy our walk together, you and I, and I will lead you exactly where I want you to be.
I put my trust in You again Papa. Thank-You for all the work You’ve already done in my heart and for all the work You will do. I’m in this together with You and with Jesus.
All is well My faithful one. You are Mine.
Reflection
Welcome to today’s page in my journal! The Lord wakes me up most nights at certain times after He’s given me a dream, which I sometimes don’t know the meaning of but other times I do, and it’s such a great comfort to my heart. I absolutely love sharing what God is doing in my heart, hoping it’ll inspire you to spend time with God everyday and grow the most fulfilling relationship with Him!
I woke up at 1:20 with the Lyrics, “Come and take me over, Jesus draw me closer, to your heart, your heart, your heart.”
3:36 I heard in my heart, “swiper no swiping! (Sensing the Lord wanting me to get up and spend time with him. “Swiper the fox would swipe this precious time away from me if I wouldn’t get up) And the lyrics, “Jesus draw me closer, to your heart, your heart your heart”
3:47: I got up to spend time with God and had these lyrics in my heart; “Christ is my firm foundation. The Rock on which I stand. When everything around me is shaken. I’ve never been more glad, that I put my faith in Jesus, He’ll never let me down, He won’t!”
My thoughts and dreams since last night: I need to pursue knowing right away what God wants me to do like in my dream awhile back when as soon as Sohee heard her instructions, she didn’t hesitate but did what was asked right away. I now realize that when I vaguely saw the persons hand out if the water, that it was instructions for me to put up my hand to speak yesterday at church when there was a question about what we sensed God saying that He wants to give us this coming year. I sensed God saying, Courage, Hope, and my hope for this year. Also that God would truly become my Firm Foundation.
The first question was to meet Jesus at a place and what is it the He is saying to me. I pictured myself at the empty tomb and sensed Jesus saying that I’m loved and that I’m valuable.
I think that it’s time that when I feel myself resisting, I need to push through it and do what I’m resisting to do. I need to think about it differently; when I’m resisting, it’s an indication of what God wants me to do. So help me Papa to push through the resistance, know exactly what You want me to do, and jump in very quickly and do it.
I forgot about a picture/short dream I saw yesterday. I saw the sun begin to shine through the fog or through the clouds! I’m thinking that the fog represents a fog of emotions where it’s been so difficult. I also think that it represents that I’ve come through it or am nearly through it.
7:00/ 7:01. The word “Effortlessly” came to mind. Yes!!
7:42 I was in a room filled with people, feeling like it was a party. I was standing close to a wall (my back to the wall) and with the beat of the music I was moving to the left; with my feet kind of together I lifted the front of my feet but kept my heels on the floor and twisted my legs to the left. Then I stood on the front part of my feet with my heals up and twisted my legs to the left again. I kept on going like this, having a lot of fun and there were a a few people following my lead like we were line dancing.. One of them had asked me how I was doing it and then she said something like, “oh that’s how you do it.” We did this kind of step all the way to the left and then went all the way to the right in the same way. We were having so much fun!
Then I was running with just socks on, outside on the grass. There was an area that had a lot of dog poop that I was avoiding. I vaguely saw there was someone running ahead of me. As I was running, I was taking careful steps so I’d miss stepping into the poop, but as I was stepping I noticed that I had accidentally stepped into it a little, so I sensed that there was a bit of poop on my right sock. I think this represents that I shared about my life yesterday. I had joy doing it and I was careful so that I was as honest as possible. Last night I got up at 3:47 when I sensed I needed to spend time with the Lord. So I went downstairs and began praying in the spirit. In my time with the Lord I also sensed His leading me in giving everything that I talked about yesterday, to Him like it was all in a backpack. And I felt like I was taking a shower and cleansing myself from all of that. So thank you Lord for correcting my thinking.
At the end of my time with God this morning I felt so much Peace in my heart; I believe that I can finally rest (or begin to rest) like He’s been asking me to do for so long. I guess the question I should have asked Him was, what do I need to do in order to be able to rest? Show me the truth about my heart that’s preventing me from resting, and lead me to be able to rest. Now I’m thinking about the dream I had yesterday about the stuff that was growing on the wall; In my dream I knew it wasn’t healthy for Lucas (who represents me in some way) to be breathing in all that stuff while he was sleeping. I’m going to be praying into that.
Then in my dream I was inside and was filled with so much joy as I ran to a small area of the room. When I got there I willed myself to fly (by agreeing with it in my spirit) and I went back to the main part of the room moving forward in the air like superman, except slowly. I was so excited and those around me watched me fly and we were all excited. Then I slowly began coming down . Then there was a couch in front of me and I tried flying again but landed on the couch, on the backrest (I had been behind the couch.) I think this represents that I’m making up my mind to push through every resistance I feel when I’m asked to do something. As I get better at it, I know I’m going to soar! I made jam jams yesterday to bring along today, and I cooked the broth for the soup, so I’m going to finish making that, and I’m also going to make two apple cinnamon pecan pie’s, like the one I made for the pie auction; I haven’t made it since then and I had never made it before that, so I’m looking forward to seeing how it’ll taste! Awhile ago I had dreamt something about not eating chocolate pie because I had already eaten it, and ever since then I’ve been hesitant to eating chocolate. But over Christmas holidays I have had chocolate. I don’t know if I should stay away from it or not. Maybe it’s just chocolate pie that I shouldn’t make. I just quickly want to share about another dream; I had dreamt of seeing gold and silver coins (loonies and toonies) in a small black garbage bin that had light white garbage overtop. Yesterday I looked into the small black garbage bin in the bathroom downstairs, and I pushed aside all the toilet paper I had used when I had been crying on the Lord during my time with him the night before, and I saw a candy package that said, “Cottage Country Peach Rings.” I thought that was so neat!!! I also think that it represents that my time with the Lord is valuable and precious to Him because of all the toilet paper I had used with my time with Him. Blessings…