My Father, you are mine and I am yours. I know your presence in my heart as I write. My heart is open to you; please come and have your way in me.
My darling, my faithful daughter, come, you are mine.
I rest in you Dad. Thank you Holy Spirit for being so near. You gave me a word last night and I wrote it down so I wouldn’t forget. You said, “I will build you straight up.” Some words you’ve spoken in the past I’ve understood right away, but this one I’m not exactly sure. I kind of don’t want to talk about it but I brought it up because it was the elephant in the room. Father, what do you want me to do with this?
Trust me always.
My Dad, we’ve been through so much together and you’ve always led me through every difficulty. I lay down every worry and fear; I’m simply tired of these. Please do come and build me straight up in every capacity you mean. Build up the courage within me and make me new in you. By faith I step out of the old and into the new. I embrace all you have for me. Please come and continue to do your work in me Holy Spirit -I am yours.
Caroline, you are mine and I’m proud of you.
Lord, it seems like all I’ve done is struggle.
But you’ve almost made it to the top.
Yes Lord, with your help.
Which is exactly what you needed to do. You’ve been dependant on me the whole time -you’ve done well.
Okay Father, in this way I don’t want to change but only to grow in my dependency on you so I won’t try and do things in my own strength. Help me to trust in you for whatever’s in front of me.
Caroline, you can keep going. You’re not alone on this hill. You are a warrior bride of Christ -I am very near to you.
I trust you my Father.. I am yours and I love being yours. I cherish these moments together..
Reflection:
The reason why I didn’t want to talk about Gods word of knowledge he gave me last night is because of the doubt I have, not all the time but sometimes, when I hear Gods voice. His voice and our walk together are so important to me that I don’t want to get the interpretation of his word wrong and start believing the wrong thing. I want God to build me up and take me higher and deeper into his calling for me..but somehow, because it’s a word of knowledge that I don’t completely understand, I’d rather have him lead me into having an understanding rather than try and have the interpretation right away. Also, I believe that because God works in unconventional ways sometimes and gives understanding through other people, this may be one of these moments where I need to wait and understanding will come in Gods timing. I do trust him -I always will..