Ephesians 5:20
“Thank God the Father at all times for everything, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ.”
Come my daughter, let’s talk; how are you?
Better, thank-you. Thank-you for helping me out of that mindset.
You’re welcome. Caroline, I have a word for you today. Rest..
Father, sometimes I feel like I can’t ever get things right and that I always disappoint people. I think this has been my identity for much of my life. Deep in my heart I wonder Jesus if, having gone on such a long journey with me, seeing all my struggles and weaknesses, that you are also disappointed or tired of me? I know that you’re not because you are God, but I do feel this way.
My faithful daughter come, you are Mine. You are right -I never get tired of you because that’s not what love is.
You’re right, I never thought about that.
Caroline -I love you with an everlasting love and I am not disappointed in you; I’m so proud of you for having come all this way.
Thank-you Lord -thank-you for your help; Thank-you for always helping me to follow you.
Caroline my dear one, love is near; I am near to you.
Father I can’t begin to describe how thankful I am.. This is what I’m most thankful for.. Thank-you…
Reflection:
I’m so amazed how quickly it gets dark outside; being prepared for it sure helps!! I feel like I’ve been through a battle this morning, feeling like it’s just over. It seems like every time something goes so well, then all of a sudden I’m under a spiritual attack. It’s like choosing the wrong kind of apple when baking an apple pie because of how hard the skin is. It shouldn’t be a big deal but it reminded me of how I’ve always perceived myself, and I’m glad to have talked about it with the Lord and getting it out in the open. The Lord gave me a few dreams last night that I believe reflect our conversation.
In the first dream I was with Jesus my husband and we were talking about vaccinations; I had told him that growing up I didn’t have these vaccinations because my mom didn’t know how important they were. He could hardly believe that I hadn’t had them and made some kind of gesture to indicate that he thought how important they were. He had some vaccinations in his hand; It looked like he had about five of them that were all connected to each-other, side by side; three of the vaccines were in white 2″ plastic kind of rounded tubes, and the other two were smaller, but also connected to the three. Then I was leaning into Jesus in total agreement that I’d take them because I trust in him completely. I need to pray about this.
Then the scene changed where we were in kind of an underground place. I was standing beside Jesus my husband, looking at some kind of white round or square thing that could have been made of cement, right in the middle of this space. It was about as high as my shoulders. As I watched I saw a small black bird come out of it from the opening at the top, and it jumped down to the ground and yawned or stretched, showing that it was early morning and it had gotten up from a night sleep. Then I went and peaked into it and saw someone’s bare legs like they were sitting on the ground and leaning up against the wall in this thing. I was alarmed and quickly went back to Jesus and said we need to get out of here! So then I think we were on our way out of the opening which had been a doorway at one time. I need to pray more about this one before I say anything about it, though birds normally represent freedom.
In this next dream I was walking on the sidewalk, on the left side of a street. I had come from the tall apartment block where Jesus my husband lived. H was on a higher floor and watched me as I walked away, and I turned to look up and wave goodbye; I was content and my steps were light. Then as I walked, I noticed someone who seemed innocent begin to walk close to me, so I immediately crossed over to the other side of the street to get away from him. Then the scene changed where I was in a small space like on a roof of a building that had a small space with a few walls; the enemy was about two meters away, shooting needles at me that contained something that would put me to sleep. It was like he was going in slow motion as he threw needles at me one at a time, and the needles were pointing strait at me. I dodged three needles. As I was dodging them, I really wanted Jesus my husband to be there to defend me but he wasn’t there. This dream I also need to pray about. I can hardly believe it’s December! I’m always excited about Christmas but it also always takes me awhile to get there. I’m taking the 5AM class at the gym tomorrow! Blessings!!