Proverbs 4:18
“The path of the righteous is like the first gleam of dawn, shining ever brighter till the full light of day.”
My Dad..
My daughter, how are you?
Jesus, I’m starving.. I’m staving to really be able to rest. I’m reminded of a dream I had a while ago that I saw someone laying down on a couch resting, and Jesus was sitting at the table with a lamp on. I never imagined it would be difficult for me to just lay down on a couch and rest. I’m so used to sitting up, being alert and ready to do. The root of that I believe is the need to always guard myself. I know in a situation where love preserves, I can totally rest, and when I do this, I know that I’m trust-falling again.
Come Caroline..
Father I sense the word “freedom.” If you say it’s okay to rest like this then I will. I know that I will gain more freedom in my heart as I do it.
My faithful one, there’s more.
Jesus, I’ve always felt like I’m in the way and that others are always waiting for me to leave. That’s why it’s difficult for me to stay if there are quiet moments.
My daughter, you are loved.. you are wanted.. you are desired… this won’t change.
Father, deep down I know this because of our long journey together. So help me completely let down my guard. Thank-you that you are so thorough with me. I know that through being so thorough, I’m able to love more deeply because of a greater trust.
I love you My daughter. I truly love you. Do you believe me now?
Jesus, yes, I do believe you now.. I can see it in all the ways you’ve shown it in our time together in our journey; your love really does preserve my heart. I wish with all my heart that I could run to you and be held by you..through the Holy Spirit I know this is possible.
Come Caroline, I’ve made a way where there was no way because of my love for you.
Thank-you Jesus, thank-you.. thank-you..
Reflection:
Tears, tears and more tears.. talking with Jesus like this, wishing I could actually embrace him and never let go… Two nights ago, March 1st I woke up at 2:22, and I had dreamt that I was a bit higher up and I saw many small round black trampolines that people use to work out, and I saw some people jumping on their mini-trampoline. I’m not sure what this represents. Then I also dreamt that I was walking along a well-worn dirt path that went along peoples houses, right next to their houses. As I passed people’s houses I could hear the conversations people were having with their families. One of them stands out, not what they were saying but that it was between a mother and her daughter. I kept on walking, needing to step away from a few houses because the path had been blocked. Then I came to the last house and I found myself inside their basement. In my dream I knew this was the last house before heading back. The basement was a bit dark because the room light wasn’t on, but it had natural light that came through the windows. I didn’t see the windows but I saw that there was natural light in the basement. I saw the light cement walls and the daughter had a smile on her face and looked like she was light hearted. I faintly remember that she had a light coloured pyjama dress on that went all the way down to the floor. I apologized, saying that I hadn’t meant to go into their basement. The daughter was kind and as I was going to leave to go back along the path, I awoke. My thoughts are that I’m having meaningful conversations with the people I’m with and that I write from my heart. The basement I believe represents deep emotions and that I’ve gone deep in my heart as I’ve shared. The daughter looked light hearted and peaceful, so I believe God is showing me that his light (natural light) is shining in the deepest part of my heart and that there’s nothing hidden; everything has come into the light? or that I’m being transparent in the deepest part of my heart. Then I woke up at 6:14 because I heard the words, “all done” in my heart (as soon as I heard these words in my heart I woke up). I had put my alarm for 6:15. Yesterday I did another recording, though it’s far too long, so I need to redo it; I need more practice. I’m also sensing that this word from the Lord means that this particular part of our journey together is done.
This morning I had dreamt that I was in a really big room full of people. On the floor were many squares and I was among them as we all danced together, taking the same steps, like square dancing; each person was in their own square which was about 3square feet, and each square that I could see was filled. I remember seeing our feet as we took the same steps -in step..the feeling in my dream when we did it all together, really fun! I’m planning to visit my mom this afternoon -blessings.. ☕️