Be the Gardener of my Heart

Jeremiah 31:12

“They will come and shout for joy on the heights of Zion; they will rejoice in the bounty of the Lord; the grain, the new wine and the oil, the young of the flocks and herds. They will be like a well watered garden, and they will sorrow no more.”

Conversation

Daddy, I love you.

I love you Caroline -you are Mine and I am well pleased with you. Come, and do not delay.

Daddy, please fill me as I spend time with you so that I have something to pray out of, when I pray for others. You’ve done so much work in my heart that I feel like I’ve been really introverted. So I feel like I’m a beginner at praying for others. Help me hear your voice so that I know what to pray for. 

My faithful one, you are Mine. I am always near to you.

Daddy, please give me your heart of love and compassion for others; I want that. I want to have a burden for the lost. Please wake my heart more Lord; I know your work there isn’t done. Wake my heart to love people more. I know this has already begin but I need more revival in my heart about that. 

My faithful daughter, I hear you and I will come. Do not worry about what others think; follow me. 

Reflection

Good morning everyone!! Yesterday morning I woke up at 3:39 with the lyrics of the song, Perfectly loved, in my heart. This morning the lyrics that were in my heart were from the song Trend, “A careful hand, a gentle guide, You’ll sustain what you have started, You’ll teach me to abide. So be the gardener of my heart, tend the soil of my soul…” In my dream last night I was in a very busy classroom with age 12-13 age kids. I had been given the task of mentoring/teaching a student one on one. I was given a lesson plan to follow that was really fun and involved candy. There wasn’t a lot of space on the whiteboard to write things because of what had already been written/taught, but I found a small open space. I wrote one word at a time for this student to be able to recognize and tell me what it is, and I began with writing really simple words like “sun,” because he was a beginner. I wrote the word, “sun” on the whiteboard and he was sitting at his desk, looking at the word. I didn’t see him but knew that that’s what was happening. In waking life I know that I’m being mentored, a leader in training through the Holy Spirit. As this was going on, the rest of the students came back into class and a few of them went to the teacher’s desk, looking at things and I shooed them away. The class was busy; it was time for recess but we were waiting for the bell to ring. I believe theres more to this dream but I know that when the Lord shows me it’s time for recess, possibly when I hear a bell in a dream or like when I hear a word of knowledge from the Lord except it’ll be a bell, I know it’ll finally be time for physical rest. Or my Daddy is showing me that the type of rest that’s his gift to me is when I’ll hear/see recess bells ringing…

I had a dream years ago when I had a dream that recess had just started, and I was inside, looking in the fridge for food. I saw through the window that the students were playing soccer or something outside in the field, and a lady came and I had a knowing that she told me I needed to go out and play right away. That morning when I woke up I sensed that the Lord had just told me that I was on a break, but I didn’t want to only assume and then miss my time with him. So I thought I’d go ahead as usual to get a sense of what the Lord was doing. Back then I always prayed in my prayer language first and then did my Bible study. As I was sitting in my prayer chair I strongly sensed to stop and go back to bed because I was on a break. So then I did, keeping my heart open to see if I had sensed right. A few days into my break I didn’t have a sense to get up early so I knew I was officially on a break, and was wondering how long my break was. The first day of my break started on my birthday, and because my dream was about having recess at school, which was 15 minutes, I counted 15 days starting with my birthday, and that took me until the end of the month. So then I knew that my recess was for 15 days and I knew exactly which day to begin again. Isn’t that so neat? I had one or two more breaks that were led by the Lord after that, and then another one just for two days when my family and I went away to a hotel for two nights. But other than that I’ve not had a break from spending time with the Lord every day. The other two times I sensed that I needed to take a break was when I had a dream where I walked to a bank to get some money that I had stored up/saved. I had a sense that I had saved a lot of money already but I was only taking out a small amount which would cover me for two days/nights of break. The other time I was in school and I was walking by some lockers; I needed to get my things out of my locker because it was time to go home -this dream was a bit more difficult for me to interpret but in my break I made sure to keep my heart open to sense if I had interpreted it right, but I didn’t get the sense that I had been wrong so I enjoyed my break.

Yesterday I went to Kenora with my kids, my sister and my mom and went on a two hour cruise on the lake! It was really nice, and then we went to Rushing River and my kids jumped off the dock into the lake and had a blast! Then we spent a bit of time by the rocks/water, and we got home around 9:30. Last night we began watching Prince Caspian but fell asleep, so today we’ll probably finish. Blessings….

Sunday July 16: This morning I had a quick dream where I was crossing a bridge in the country.. There was a wide stream of water, wide enough that a person couldn’t just jump across, flowing underneath it. As I was crossing the bridge I looked down to the water and saw a kitchen chair on a big flat rock that had a big round basket on it which was the size of the whole seat. The basket was filled with big eggs that were the size of a persons hand. It reminds me of the bridge at Rushing River; My mom, sister and myself were standing on the bridge that was made just for walking on, and my kids were sitting on a huge flat rock that was almost underneath the bridge, watching the water rush by… (I’m actually not sure if the kitchen chair was on a flat rock or if I’m just remembering that my kids were on one at Rushing River.) Blessings…