Your Love is Wild for Me

Psalm 35:28

“My tongue will speak of your righteousness and of your praises all day long.” 

Conversation

Daddy, I love you. Thank-you for your nearness. Thank-you that you’re a God of Love. I praise you Daddy and I worship you. Great are you Lord. 

I love you My daughter. Come, lets walk together, you and I.

Yes Lord, I love spending time with you. You are my Anchor.

Caroline, I have a word for you today. Rest.

Daddy, I don’t know if it is, but I feel like the dirty water in my dream represents worry or other negative influence. If the truck represents me, then I was leaning into the dirty waterfall. I say, “close the window in Jesus name.” Help me Daddy!

I will help you My daughter. Be at rest; there is nothing to fear. 

Daddy, you are a Good Good Father, and I worship you forever. Fill me with your presence as I keep my eyes on you. Help me to keep my eyes on you night and day. 

Reflection 

Good morning… Last night I woke up at 2:02 with lyrics from the song, Wild for me. The specific lyrics in my heart were about praising and thanking God, and I checked what the specific lyrics are to the song,”There’s no way to thank you, but I love to try to, so I’ll keep on singing at the top of my lungs.” I’m so thankful that I can feel God and Jesus’ love in my heart and that it’s not just a knowing in my mind..

In my dreams last night I vaguely sensed that I was on the top of a hill. Then I was at a church which didn’t feel like it was mine. I was inside the women’s big bathroom and there were two men who I sensed were pastors, standing in the foyer, talking nearby. I had run into the bathroom because I was going to run laps through the bathroom and foyer area. I had a knowing that the bathroom had a door on each side so that I could enter into it on one side and exit through the other. So I had run into the first part of the bathroom and then I saw a door that led into the second part that was closed. So I opened it and as I was opening it I saw the doorstop at the bottom of the door and was going to pull it down with my foot so that the door would stay open. Then I was standing in the first part of the women’s bathroom again and I saw in front of me a row of my sweaters hanging on a line. The row went longer than I could see from where I was standing. I saw a white/beige sweater at the end closest to me and I hung up my dark grey sweater beside it, right at the end. I knew this was my last sweater and then other people would hang up theirs after mine. In waking life I’m sensing that the sweaters represent all my past recordings that I’ve done because I wore a sweater for almost every one of them. Some of them I wore several times and in my dream some of them looked the same colour (white), and I feel like the grey sweater that was the last one, represents this next message I’m going to speak which is also the last message I recorded. I think this has something to do with this timeframe I’m in right now. I’m sure that I’ll be speaking again when the Lord tells me. After this message I’m about to speak, it’ll be other people’s turn to begin hanging up theirs; their turn to speak/do what the Lord is asking them to do. Then I was still in the church and I heard their pastor begin to preach, introducing what he was going to be talking about, like background information maybe. I think he was one of the pastors who had been talking in the foyer earlier. 

Then the scene changed where I was talking with two little boys, telling them with excitement that I was going to go to their house for supper that day! Then I was standing in front of a photograph that was sitting on a small table or something. On the photograph were these two little boys. They were looking at me and I winked clearly at them and they both clearly winked back at me, smiling. I love this! This part of my dream was so full of joy! In my dream I had a feeling of deep satisfaction. 

Then because I had gotten up at 4:20 to get ready to go to Shopgym, I lay down again for a nap. I dreamt that I was in my parents home (not the actual). Then they left to go somewhere and I was by myself in their house. Then they came back almost right away; they had brought something to the school where a younger person was going to school. I don’t know who this younger person represents, maybe me. I saw my mom happily walk through the front door and I knew my dad was right behind her. Then I was in their kitchen and there was someone else in the room too who I vaguely saw. I saw some opened hard Taco shells on a lower rounded corner shelf. The taco shells were outside of the bag, one laying by itself on the shelf, and I asked my mom what she was going to make for the birthday party. She said Taco’s. Then I had a knowing or I remembered that I had already made a large birthday cake a few weeks ago and we had celebrated then too, so I didn’t need to make a big birthday cake, but I thought something small would be nice. I remembered that I had made carrot muffins a few days ago and had put them into the freezer to keep fresh, so I was planning on bringing them. In waking life I was also planning to bring carrot cake and muffins. I’m not sure if the cake in my dream represents something different, so now I’m wondering if I should just bring carrot muffins or both? Either way I’m happy to bring them!! I believe that the muffins could represent doing the announcements or other smaller things rather than doing the bigger thing which is the message of the night, but I’m not sure..

In this next dream Bella and I were in our current truck; I was driving and Bella was in the front passenger side. I was parking on the right side of the street, and there was a lot of brown dirty water that had accumulated there because there was something clogging the drain. When I had parked, the truck began leaning towards the right side, and there was a brown dirty waterfall coming down on that side. The passenger side window was open just a crack and I saw a flow of water come into the truck, but I wasn’t panicking or anything; I very calmly told Bella to close the window, so she did. Then I looked out of the drivers side window and saw all the dirty water that I needed to walk through in order to get to where the street was clogged to unclog it. Then when I began to drive, the road was clear/dry, and then I had crossed the road to the other side and had driven onto the grassy area where some signs were. I felt really tired and groggy and had slouched down on my seat so I could only see the top of the stop sign. I saw the stop sign go down as I drove over it; I tried to stop but the truck didn’t stop. Then we were still moving slowly and I ran over another sign which I also flattened to the ground; I didn’t see what kind of sign that was. I have vague ideas as to what these dreams mean, and I know they will become more clear as I continue walking on my journey with Jesus. Right before I woke up from my nap, the word “Dempsters” was on my mind. I think theres a company by that name that makes bread, but I don’t really like that brand because to me it tastes like theres too many additives. We never buy that brand and I hadn’t thought of this brand for a long time.

I’m going to begin practicing my message today… I didn’t run 4k yesterday; I was planning on doing it after supper but it was getting late and I sensed not to go but stay home and be with my kids. This morning we continued with our weight training and did bench presses; I really enjoy them and I think they’re my favourite. For the workout we ran 800m X2 with 2min rest between. Tomorrow I’ll run another 4k. Anyway, these are my thoughts today.. many blessings….