“Love never fails.” 1 Corinthians 13:8
Conversation
Papa, I love You. I praise and worship You. You are King in my heart.
Come My darling and rest. The time is near. You are Mine.
Papa, thank-You for Your grace when I’ve not heard You right. Thank-You for Your love through Your correction.
You’re welcome My daughter, you are Mine. Come, I have a word for you today.
Papa, what is it?
“Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path. When I feel afraid, think I’ve lost my way, still You’re there right beside me. Nothing will I fear, as long as You are near, please be near me to the end.”
Thank-You Papa. My heart is so comforted.
I love you My faithful one. Rest -you are Mine.
Reflection
Hello and welcome to today’s page in my journal! The Lord wakes me up most nights at certain times after He’s given me a dream, which I sometimes don’t know the meaning of but other times I do, and it’s such a great comfort to my heart. I absolutely love sharing what God is doing in my heart, hoping it’ll inspire you to spend time with God everyday and grow the most fulfilling relationship with Him. For the past while God has been taking me through a spiritual shower. I believe He’s preparing me for what’s coming up next. He’s purifying my heart so that my heart is clean before Him. It also clears the way for me to hear Holy Spirit better when there’s no mess in the way. I record the times when God says something to me because even in that, there’s meaning. Blessings.
Last night I had a difficult time sleeping, and at 2:24 I heard my name being called in an urgent way, so I got up to be with the Lord. I had been awake till late the evening before and probably only slept for about two hours. I barley had any sleep but I went downstairs anyway because I heard the Lord call my name. My time downstairs wasn’t very productive and basically was asleep the whole time. But I had a disturbing dream during that time; I dreamt that I was inside a house and there was someone else there too. I saw small black flies in a clump on a white paper, then I saw that both my hands were covered in small black flies and a few in my nose. Then I was in a room that had a small door, and I asked her to open it for me so I could go outside and do something about the flies. She didn’t open it for me so I reached out my hand to open it myself. What I get from this dream is that I had written something as I was journaling my conversation with the Lord, and I hadn’t heard correctly. I believe it’s the intense conversation I had with the Lord yesterday about being on stage with the Easter play. I think what I heard from the Lord about me being on stage was right because God has been saying this to me for awhile already, but my thoughts went along with the idea about the movie, Beauty and the Beast, and I assumed God was talking about that. I’m so relieved He’s not talking about that! But as I’m writing, I’m wondering if there’s anything else that I’ve gotten wrong. My prayer is that if there is, God will lead me to know what it is and lead me into the right direction. I’m happy to be wrong; being wrong keeps me humble and that’s a good place to be!
5:55 “I couldn’t love you any more, any more, any more than I do right now..” (I woke up with these lyrics singing in my heart.)
7:30 I woke up again before my alarm and had a dream where it was morning. I was in the living room with my hubby and his dad (God/Jesus). I think we were in his Dads house. I had been sleeping on the couch and I sat up. My hubby’s dad was sitting on a couch across from me, facing me and looking at me; He was so pleased that his son had married me, and it felt so good to be loved and accepted!! He was smiling as he was looking at me, and I was so content as I smiled back. I saw my hubby on my left, crouching or kneeling on the floor, organizing our stuff, and I said to him, “Well good morning my husband! This is our first morning together, married.” I said these obvious things because I was loving the moment, that I could actually say these words because in my dream they were true!! I didn’t have my glasses on yet so I couldn’t see his dad’s face clearly, but I was looking at him completely, for a long length of time (not just a glance). My hubby had been working hard, organizing our stuff which was all in his dad’s house. I felt so peaceful and blessed.
His dad said something about someone who was Russian, and I said something about being afraid of Russian men. But as we were looking at each other it was like he was waiting for me to come to the conclusion that I actually had no need to be afraid of Russians, and so I really wasn’t. As we were looking at each other, I think it settled in my heart that I had nothing to be afraid of.
Then a scene were I was in the living room I think, and someone had just passed away. I was looking at one of their empty black pelican cases that was sitting open on the floor. I was taking it in that I was really married again. It was bright in the room. The carpet was a light coloured carpet. (Today I watched on Instagram a Pelican land in the water.)
Another part of the dream was, I was laying on a big chair or something, sleeping at night, but it was in a public place with other people around. I didn’t have a blanket over me so even though I had my pj’s on, I was exposed. As I adjusted myself, turning to the left (my hubby was on the left, so I turned towards him) as I lay on my side, I pulled my pj’s down to cover myself (not to hide but because of my dignity). I had a feeling like my kids were with me on the big chair. In the morning I got up and saw that my hubby had been working all night, organizing our stuff. It was all in the room, completely organized; I had a knowing that he was done and that there was nothing else to organize.
I also dreamt of falling into a huge deep basin of water. I saw or knew that the water was a bit dirty, and I saw a few balls falling through the air too, and they would splash into the water (almost at the same time) before me. As I was falling in I had a thought that I was actually falling into this deep dirty water, wondering how deep I would go into it. I had a feeling like it was a deep basin for washing stuff. So I plunged in and my head stayed above the water. Then I knew that a wave was coming and I was preparing myself that the wave was going to crash me against the wall.
I had a quick dream where I was looking at one of my necklaces. It had a big round pendant the size of the palm of my hand, and I saw that the whole necklace was tarnished.
A few thoughts: Biblical world view; looking through the lens at Papa God -I can gaze into his face now (spiritually) but my view isn’t clear at all without my glasses. Papa, lead me to put my spiritual glasses on so that I can see you clearly! (learning about who He is in a deeper way?) As I was subbing in Music last week, the music game we were playing was called something like, “Four Corners.” ..reminding me of the message about the jigsaw puzzle.
More thoughts: If I would have no one hold me back, not caring about what anyone thinks (except the Trinity), I would pour myself into reading and studying and taking classes and putting messages together and presenting them. I would mentor people and teach classes. I want to be a leader in church. I want to be part of a team. I know this is my passion, and this is what I want to do, not what I think I should do. I know that God has led me to eventually be a pastor but I’m holding this loosely in my hands because I know that life happens. I’m not afraid to RUSH(ia). God knows my heart better than I do, so this is what I think is going on with my heart.
I forgot to mention that yesterday I had a quick dream of a vehicle that had a low tire in the back left side, and as I watched it pick up speed as it drove over railway tracks. The momentum of the speed caused the tire to lift up like it would if it was filled with air. Then I vaguely saw it like a horse pulling a wagon. The last part is so vague. Yesterday my husband bought flowers for Bella and I for Valentine’s Day. I wanted to take the raspberry (blue) icebreakers but I thought I should take the one in the middle (green). I wanted to sit on the other couch but I thought I should sit in the one I did. I’m going to begin doing what I’d really like to do and not what I think I SHOULD do. Many Blessings…
This morning I cooked 5 bags of Medium Rede-Made-Noodles for tonight! This afternoon I’m subbing for grade 1. This morning at shopgym someone mentioned that her and her hubby went to Puerto Vallarta, Mexico. The only place I’ve been other than the States is Brazil -one day… Monday we’ll be going to the Festival Du Voyageur. We were there once, years ago. I actually don’t mind not going down hill sledding this year.. my back has been doing so well lately, but in the last few days my lower back seems to get out of place easily. Blessings…