“But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of Him who called you out of darkness into His wonderful light. 1 Peter 2:9
Hello and welcome to my Journal. Life in the valley can be very difficult, but we need to remember that God is always faithful. Right now I’m in a valley, being tested and pruned so that in God’s time I’ll be ready to walk out of this valley, Victorious! What I’ve been doing so I don’t stay in a place of despair is spending time with God and crying out to Him because I know He hears me and He loves me. I’m keeping on doing what He’s already asked me to do. I’m clinging onto hope because God is my firm foundation. God is faithful and I know that He will never let me down, and I’m going to stay faithful to Him. He has shown me His faithfulness more times than I can count, and I know His love through that. God gives me dreams and wakes me up at certain times. As you read my journal my hope is that even though I’m in a valley in my life, I hope you will be inspired to always keep your heart open to God no matter what’s going on in your life, because God is a God of Love and He always has a Good plan for our life. He knows how to lead us; we just need to trust Him and follow Him!
Conversation and Reflection
May 22: 2:08 “Lift me up, hold me down. Keep me close, safe and sound…”
2:22 I got up to pray
2:04 Come, My darling, you are Mine.
2:41 I love You Papa, so much. I’m here because I love You.
2:43 I know you do.
2:44 Time
2:45 My daughter, it’s time.
2:46 Papa, I’m sensing You say that it’s time. What would You have me do?
2:48 Arise
2:49 Papa, I’m sensing I need to arise from my sleep.
2:50 Yes My daughter, rise up, it’s time.
2:52 “Lift me up, hold me down. Keep me close, safe and sound.”
2:54 Papa, I know that my heart has awakened in love with You, and I’m so very thankful.
2:57 Papa, I’m sensing I need to shave the sides of my head, and this is so hard for me to do. But I will do it if I know You for sure want me to.
3:01 Please show me a sign that would tell me if this is what you want me to do…
3:07 Come My faithful one, rest, knowing you are Mine.
3:09 “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.”
3:10 Papa, it’s not about me, it’s All about You. I’m so thankful for Your love, and that You have a reason for everything You do.
3:13 Time, My daughter. Rise up. I have called you, blessed.
3:15 Yes I’m coming Papa. I will rise up and share You with others, and I know You will help me, so I’m not afraid.
3:17 Courage
3:20 Come My daughter and rest. You are Mine this day.
3:22 I love You Papa. “Lift me up, hold me down. Keep me close, safe and sound…”
3:24 I’m rising up!!!! (I’m rising up into the light from the darkness!! Yay happy Day!!)
4:51 I was in a very large room like the foyer of our church. There were places to sit on my right and there was a long wall on my left that I was walking beside. I had just come out of a room and was walking along the wall (there were rooms on the other side of that wall), and there was a door further to the end that I saw on that wall that I was going to go into. As I was walking, I imagined someone sitting in a chair in the seating area thinking something like, “there she is, walking..” (This I’m sure is just me being too aware of myself..)
Then in this scene I was in a smaller room, sitting with my mentor (Karyn) and two other people. I think there must have been a small table we were sitting around because there was a plant or something that hid her face a little as she was talking. She had longer brown hair. There was also a lady who was wearing a white shirt, working with wood about twenty feet away on the other side of the room. We were talking but needed to stop talking (and we watched her as she was finishing her work) for a bit because the lady was using a machine that had a fast turning wheel that smoothed the wood (or something like that) she was working on. I didn’t see wood but I knew it was wood; she was standing behind a table that had wood on it and other wood working tools, but this was vague. It was very loud. Then she stopped the machine because she was done doing what she was doing, and there was kind of like blue smoke in the room. I coughed a little because of it and I saw Karyn also cough because of it. I’m thinking this represents playing board games? I’m thinking to join on Friday…Could it represent running? My lower back hurt a lot again today at Shopgym; I lifted 55lbs from the floor and then overhead, once, and I needed to stop because of my back. I also rowed for the workout instead of running, and I tried doing wall-balls and I couldn’t. After pondering about it, and I’m going to pray into this, but I’m sensing God is telling me to stop posting (stop talking) only until I’m done reading my Pipeline book. I can probably post small things but not to do fresh posts until I’m done.
5:02 In this short dream I saw a man walk into a place that reminds me of an outside patio that was a restaurant. I saw that all the tables were filled with people, and on all the tables were packages of two Pizza Pops. I’m thinking this could represent this Sunday at church where we’re going to have all the food trucks outside after church. I’m going to Soar. Blessings…
May 23: 2:35 “oh she’s beautiful, she’s apart of me, she’s my wife…”
4:33 “oh she beautiful, she’s apart of me, she’s my wife…”
5:56 oh she’s beautiful, she’s apart of me, she’s my wife…” (Bride of Christ; I have more of a knowing now, in my heart, that I’m loved and accepted… Thank-You Jesus…)