“Righteousness will be his belt and faithfulness the sash around his waist.” Isaiah 11:5
Conversation
Papa, I love You so very much! I worship You my King with all my heart, and I’m so thankful for You and for Your love. Thank You for this awesome and wonderful journey. Thank You for being so near to me all this time. I know Your love deep in my heart and I believe that Your love has been made complete in me. I lack nothing because in You I have everything I will ever need here on earth and in heaven. I praise Your Holy Name!
I love you My darling. Come, I have much in store for you. Abide in Me and I will abide in you.
Papa, You are the King of my heart. I love having no agenda except to enjoy You. You, in the first place of my heart, are all I need. Thank You for bringing those I love into my life; I need them too, next to You. I pray that You will bring those who You want in my life to be close to me, and help us to do Your work better together.
Yes My daughter, this is good and will be.
Papa, Holy Spirit, help me to discern Your voice and be able to complete all the tasks You’re leading me to do. Help me not to leave any out.
I will surely help you My daughter.
Papa I hear, “this joy is mine and is now complete” Have Your way in me Papa. I am Yours.
I love you Carolyn My darling. All is well with you; you are Mine.
Reflection
Hello and welcome to my Journal. Life in the valley can be very difficult, but we need to remember that God is always faithful. Right now I’m in a valley, being tested and pruned so that in God’s time I’ll be ready to walk out of this valley, Victorious! What I’ve been doing so I don’t stay in a place of despair is spending time with God and crying out to Him because I know He hears me and He loves me. I’m keeping on doing what He’s already asked me to do. I’m clinging onto hope because God is my firm foundation. God is faithful and I know that He will never let me down, and I’m going to stay faithful to Him. He has shown me His faithfulness more times than I can count, and I know His love through that. God gives me dreams and wakes me up at certain times. As you read my journal my hope is that even though I’m in a valley in my life, I hope you will be inspired to always keep your heart open to God no matter what’s going on in your life, because God is a God of Love and He always has a Good plan for our life. He knows how to lead us; we just need to trust Him and follow Him. God is waking up my heart to know His love, and many times I wake up, having heard lyrics from a love song, and it totally draws my heart closer to His. We as a church are Jesus’ bride, and I’m being drawn closer to the heart of God, Jesus every day…
July 29: 11:46 “Transformers”
12:49 “forbaden” to do something (I heard forbaden, not forbidden)
1:33 Wonderful and powerful and glorious and .. who’re we talked about, that’s my King!
1:47 I’m awake and I have a knowing deep in my heart that God loves me, Jesus loves me…
1:57 “Make room for her.” I heard this in my heart right before waking up, yay thank You Papa! In my dream I saw someone walk into a group of people and someone said to the others to make room for her. It reminds me of being in the foyer at church and seeing a home group sitting in a circle. In waking life, in the evening I sensed I should have sat down and talked with the home group that was there.
2:05 I wasn’t asleep yet but I saw an orange ball, basketball, roll slowly to my feet.
4:42? Wonderful and Powerful and Glorious and Holy is He, who’re we talking about? That’s my King!
5:32 “Who are we talking about about, that’s my King!”
I dreamt something about a friend (specifics escaped me almost as soon as I woke up) -I went downstairs at this time.
6:28 Papa
Grace
6:29 ThankYou Papa..
You’re welcome My daughter. Rest, all is well with you. You are Mine.
6:37 “Texas “ Something about being in Texas.
6:40 “1.5” (heard in my heart before waking up)
6:41 “We’ve waited so long…” (heard in my heart before waking up)
6:46 Something came to my memory: I was in the location, at the Christian school I went to growing up. There was one day where it was a fitness day and a few of us were running on the road (gravel) in front of the school. There were a number of times we needed to run to a certain point and back to see how quickly we could run, and right before the finish line my cousin passed me. (She caught up with me and ran ahead of me)
7:01 I dreamt that I saw an older white bathroom counter; the toilet area was behind me and I was facing the sink.
For a few minutes I was coming before the Lord, asking for forgiveness for resisting Him over the years; looking at my own weaknesses instead of His strength, and I feel like I’ve been forgiven.
7:10 Family. My kids dad was going to go for a run and he was looking down, fiddling with some energy packs in his hand.
7:25 I had a dream where I was at The Forks and I jumped down onto the ground (“sticking the landing”) from having been on something high, like the elevator tower. Then a guy came to me saying, “you girls wanna..” (do something together) The guy was a kind and genuine person.
7:31 “Fresh start” In the dream I was cleaning up a water hose that was on the ground.
7:33 I vaguely dreamt about seeing and talking with someone from youth; I heard her voice.
7:36 I had a sense that someone was taking care of me.
7:38 “Milt Stegall” “Dwayne Watson” (I had no idea someone by the name Dwayne Watson existed until I looked online)
7:52 “we have one” Seeing a hand with all the fingers holding something. (Bella picked some apples from an apple tree here in town)
7:55 “I don’t know where the guys are, wait”
7:56 “That is absolutely fantastic!”
7:58 “a successful westbound”
8:57 I heard in my heart right before waking up, “Size 9, 6-5” I dreamt that a class was about to begin.
9:16 “I hear the call, whispering my name…” In my dream I was listening to the song with these lyrics from an old radio or record player that had a round dial and I turned the dial up clockwise to make the music louder. It was so peaceful. The people singing sounded like they were from the olden days where the blend and harmony of their voices were the main music being played; it sounded so genuine and soothing. I had dreamt about a group of people but when I heard the music being played I was by myself, and I sensed someone pulling up and parking to come in. I ordered a Peach summer drink yesterday, and when I was done I had a very strong Cap (4 espresso shots)with vanilla flavouring, and it was deep and delicious…
There was no Shopgym class this morning. Getting the bikes ready for tomorrow. Lucas has a driving lesson in the morning.. God is so Good and I love Him very much…❤️🔥
June 30: 1:03 When I see you again…
2;36 yes
5:53 It’s gonna be alright.. Standing here with you.. You give me your grace…
7:53 Love is calling my name…
On the way home this morning to load our bikes, a car passed me on my lane and I wasn’t sure what it said, so I drove faster and caught up to it and saw that it said something about making it!!
July 31: 2:12 Here I am, I’m coming close. I need you right now Jesus…
3:56 “In order for it to be a meeting place.” (I heard in my heart right before waking up)
I think I dreamt that it was 6:00.
4:30 Come My darling, rest, you are Mine.
4:47 Rest, all is well with you.
4:53 I was reminded in my thoughts about hearing to “sit behind the pastor.”
4:58 Come My daughter
I’m coming Papa. Thank You for being patient with me
5:02 Come up
I had a picture of a Jean skirt that had a frill at the bottom. I will wear my jean skirt and my brown belt to make that look..
I’m gonna get through this. Through this I’m gonna get through this so help me God.
9:42 Darling just kiss me slow…
9:52 I won’t give you up this time…
10:04 “Can you do me another favour as well?” I had a quick dream of seeing a car drive out of the auto pack parking lot where we changed the tire. (I heard the question in my heart right before waking up.)
Yesterday evening I was so tired that I took a nap and heard a few things in my heart before waking up:
7:46 I saw a straight white? rope connected to or going up to a car.
7:52 .. you my heart, my home…
7:56 Oh my love she’s beautiful , she’s apart of me, she’s my wife..
I’m thinking that I should have gone to the city to witness.. thinking that that’s what the word “fantastic” in that certain context represented. Please forgive me Papa.. in my heart I really want to go; I just felt bad because Bella has such a difficult time with me not being home and my kids dad doesn’t support me going. I know that God has called me to do missions, so because God needs to be first in my life, I’ve felt that if I didn’t go, I would have said no to God and I can’t do that. I’ve learned that the middle finger represents being an evangelist (God gave me a dream about seeing a hand and the middle finger). So because I’m so certain about this, how can I just stay home (summer) and work as a teacher (sub) in the Fall? If God requires me to do this, juggle it all, then I will, but I’m hoping and praying that I won’t need to sub again. Yes I want to be obedient to God and not miss anything He wants me to do. I want to be an evangelist. Early afternoon Bella and I walked to the post office to pick up some beads from Amazon, reminding me of a dream I had many years ago; in my dream I was walking to the post office with my two/three year old girl, sending a birthday gift bag away, ordering something through that. Anyway, Love and Blessings…