“The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full” John 10:10
Conversation
Papa, I love You so much. I worship You with all my heart, but I’m sensing I’m still resisting You in an area of my life. Help me to surrender fully to You because I know I can trust You.
Come, trust Me My daughter. You can do this. All things are possible with Me. My Joy is your strength.
Yes Papa, I recognize that when I’m joyful, I’m a lot more confident. Please help me to keep having Your joy in my heart at all times so that I can be ready for all quick surprises that come before me.
I will help You My faithful one. Come, you are completely Mine. I love you.
Reflection
Hello and welcome to my Journal. Life in the valley can be very difficult, but we need to remember that God is always faithful. Right now I’m in a valley, being tested and pruned so that in God’s time I’ll be ready to walk out of this valley, Victorious! What I’ve been doing as I’m waiting is spending time with God and keeping on doing what He’s already asked me to do. I’m clinging onto hope because God is my firm foundation. God is faithful and I know that He will never let me down, and I’m going to stay faithful to Him. He has shown me His faithfulness all the time and I know His love through that. God gives me dreams and wakes me up at certain times. As you read my journal my hope is that even though I’m in a valley in my life, I hope you will be inspired to always keep your heart open to God no matter what’s going on in your life, because God is a God of Love and He always has a Good plan for our life. He knows how to lead us; we just need to trust Him and follow Him! Very often God draws my heart to Him through love songs! My love for God/Jesus keeps on growing as I continue to pursue Him. During the night God wakes me up at certain times with either a word from Him and/or a dream. So here’s my journal entry for today..
12:03 A white Pelican with a big silver fish deep in its beak, about to swallow. Yes Papa, I’m coming!!! Help me come please….
4:27 “Darling just kiss me slow , your heart is all I own. I will not give you up this time.”
5:28 “He learned so much” In my dream I saw a man doing things outside. I was standing with someone, talking about him and they said this about him. I had a knowing that he had gone to university and had learned much more than people would normally learn in university. In waking life I have a better understanding about what’s going on in my journey with Jesus. Every day that we do an activity at church, I have the opportunity to be connected with Jesus. I think that someone is so intelligent and has so much wisdom… wondering how they can know so quickly and clearly what God is saying?
5:59 I don’t deserve it, darling you look perfect tonight
6:05 chicutery board (Wondering if I need to make it sometime)
6:09 I had a picture of K going head first, like she was sliding on the ground (like sledding; diving?).
6:20 mountain
6:32 This mountain before me
7:54 I saw a licence plate through a window (will keep my eyes open)
8:37 I’m gonna get through this, through this I’m gonna get through this, so help me God.
I dreamt that I was driving (maybe in the passenger seat) and I was looking out of the window on my right and saw some helicopters parked, sitting in a row facing my (the roads) direction (and kind of at an angle; I also vaguely saw vehicles parked on my left. It had a bit of a military or royal feel). There was one that stood out to me and it was black. I also saw the Prime Minister through the window on my right. He was by himself, walking and watching me as I was driving by. I think there was a car or two that was parked beside him. I was wondering if that was really him. It felt like he was there, wondering who would find him first and I felt like I should have went to him. Then I saw a helicopter high in the air and I knew it was going to him to pick him up. If I see this sometime, I’m hoping and praying that I’ll be able to realize it in time and be able to come.
In another dream I was doing something with a group of people. (bbq on Sat?)
I dreamt that I wanted to use the bathroom. I saw two toilets, one at a time, full of poop from other people that I flushed, and I saw that the toilet bowls were round. I’m sensing this has something to do with us sitting in a circle and other people talking. I know that I’m so quiet, but I don’t know what I would say..
Yesterday I thought it was so neat that the bus number was 17!! At the park I prayed for two people right at the beginning, and then for a couple, praying for their son’s situation. I gave a water bottle to the place where they rent out those bikes (beetogether) and gave her our church pamphlet. I have a high five to someone, using my left hand. (I missed using my left hand in our circle at church for a high five; I was holding something in my left hand and realized it right after. It came so quick! I know that in a dream not too long ago I dreamt there were many pins sticking into a pin cushion; I know deep in my heart that I can trust Jesus in this area. This journey is so painful, but I know that my joy/our joy will be so deep when I can finally make the plunge.
This Saturday my friend and her husband are having a bbq get together at the park, and I told her I’m coming.. I have such a bad habit of saying no at first, then when I think about it, I often say yes. I’m going to try and remember to give myself a pep talk before events and hold something in my right hand. But I know the most important thing I can do is press into the Lord beforehand and spend time with Him everyday, which I do but not always in the Bible.
I’m wondering if when I saw K sliding forward; could this represent diving into a pool from a diving board? And do I need to wait until church goes or can it be if I go with my family? I thought I’d never do that, and if this is what it represents, then I will do it. There were two girls who giggled and said they’re too afraid to do something while walking beside a pool;
I’m sensing that the right turn is my right hand; The intersection was covered with orange flags (wisdom?). I follow someone who I look up to spiritually so much and she posted something about the seven Spirits of God and the seven dimensions of God, through a painting/colours and what they represent: Blue -Knowledge; Purple -Fear of the Lord: Green-Counsel: Turquoise -Might: Orange-Wisdom: Yellow-Understanding: Red-sensing is a culmination of all the colours because it was at the center? The wrist band I was wearing yesterday is Bella’s from VBS, and says, “Diving Into God’s Love” I’m reading The Five Love Languages of Children by Gary Chapman and Ross Campbell. I also wanted to say that in my dream the other night, my green towel was ripped, not just frayed. Because I dreamt about it, I’m using it. I’m going to Shopgym tomorrow. I started reading it years ago. Goodnight… Love and Blessings…❤️🔥