“The Lord is my Shepherd. I shall not be in want.” (I lack nothing) Psalm 23:1
Hello and welcome to my journal. Life in the valley can be very difficult, but we need to remember that God is always faithful. Right now I’m in a valley, being tested and pruned so that in God’s time I’ll be ready to walk out of this valley, Victorious! What I’ve been doing as I’m waiting is spending time with God and keeping on doing what He’s already asked me to do. I’m clinging onto hope because God is my firm foundation. God is faithful and I know that He will never let me down, and I’m going to stay faithful to Him. He has shown me His faithfulness all the time and I know His love through that. God gives me dreams and wakes me up at certain times. As you read my journal my hope is that even though I’m in a valley in my life, I hope you will be inspired to always keep your heart open to God no matter what’s going on in your life, because God is a God of Love and He always has a Good plan for our life. He knows how to lead us; we just need to trust Him and follow Him. Very often God draws my heart to Him through love songs and intimacy with Him in dreams, because as part of the bride of Christ, Jesus is my husband. My love for God/Jesus keeps on growing as I continue to pursue Him. During the night God wakes me up at certain times with either a word from Him and/or a dream. So here’s my journal entry for today…
Conversation
Papa, Thank You for who You are! You are always so good to me. I worship You with all my heart, with all of who I am. I am Your daughter, desperately seeking after Your heart, Your will. You are my God, my Protector, my Redeemer, Saviour and Friend. I ask that today will be the day that I will take that step that I can finally have come to where You are leading.
Come My daughter. I’m waiting here for you.
11:20 Come
Dreams, Visions and Reflection
Jan 7, 12:35 Flames on houses? I vaguely saw a torch on the four corners of some houses, but this is vague.
I dreamt I was helping take care of some baby kids. There was one who was making a bit of trouble and walked off the bed, so I walked onto the bed and followed her. As I was preparing supper yesterday I was pondering about my dream about the candy, thinking that maybe God was leading me to buy candy and sharing it with those around me. I was trying not to feel nervous about it but the thought of going back there was overwhelming and my heart began to pound heavily for about 20 seconds. Sometimes my heart does that but it doesn’t last very long, and it’s never lasted as long as it did last night.
12:40 I will rise…
8:15 I woke up. I had woken up shortly after 6 but fell asleep again. I dreamt that I was on a patio overlooking a deep crevice. It had a clear glass railing around it. I was on the floor of the patio close to the glass railing and I was thankful for it because it prevented me from falling. Then something happened: A strong man had his arm around me and we shot up high into the sky.
At 8:15 I went downstairs to pray and cry out to God. I also dreamt that I was at a place like 711 feeling like I bought two things, feeling like it was a drink and a snack. Then the person at the cash register had my clear bag of money in his hand and was taking a toonie or two toonies and some change. I had a five dollar bill in there that I had been planning to use (to get change back) and I think he knew that because I had mentioned it, but he still just took the change. Then I saw that my hand was open and I had a handful of dimes in my hand. This reminds me of being able to reach out and take what God has for me.
In my crying out to God I heard the word “Fast” I’m not sure if I need to fast today or if this means that this being able to follow will be quick.
9:23 “Favour”
9:44 My daughter, come. “Tender Mercies”
I heard, “you came” several times… (I did come, at 8:15)
9:47 My daughter, I am yours and you are Mine.
9:49 Papa, please show me if I made it, if Your tender mercies have covered me…
9:58 Come, rest, all is well. You are Mine.
10:07 Come My daughter
10:10 Papa…
Come
(I’m going to do my Bible study)
Open the eyes of my heart Lord. Open the eyes of my heart, I want to see You. I want to see You. To see You high and lifted up. Shining in the light of Your glory. Pour out Your power and love, as we sing holy, holy, holy. Praying for understanding so that I can follow Him…🙏🏻
January 8: 12:52 I saw a necklace. I was thinking to get a cheaper necklace to save money (the one I’ve been wearing is tarnished), but because I had a dream about it, I’ll see if there’s a nicer one at the outlet mall, at the same place.
12:54 “Artificial intelligence” I heard in my heart as I was awake.
4:54 In my dream it was like I was playing a game of bouncing up, and then as I was coming back down I’d go down at a curve and then go back up. The board was covered in spikes and if it was my hand bouncing up and down, my hand would also be covered in spikes. And everywhere my hand would bounce, it would take as many spikes off the board as it could before coming back down. On the board there was a girl who could move around at her own free will as she was trying to escape. As she moved around the board, the spikes on the board became her hair, and the person who’s hand was bouncing over the board would try and move his hand over her long hair and her head as many times as possible before gravity would take him down again. Everywhere the hand would go, it would press onto and collect as many spikes as possible, so that as her hair/spikes were sticking up, some of the spikes would stick onto the hand, and the goal was to get as many spikes as possible. So as the hand moved over her hair, her hair would get thinner every time. In my dream my hand bounced over her, but before I bounced back down I managed to move my hand back and forth over her bangs several times before rolling off the side of her hair. Blessings…
I feel like I have so many words deep within me that need to come out, but I don’t know where to start in the small amount of time I have to write this evening. I’m okay with others being wrong about me because I care more about pleasing God. Today during and after Soar I could feel the weight I was carrying, but after I picked up a Matcha Tea Latte I was reminded of Gods promise and then I didn’t feel as heavy. I’m thinking the nerds I saw in my dream represent that I need to be reading. It’s like there’s a war for my time. At Soar today was so filling for me, and I’m so thankful that I was able to go. I’m going to try and practice my voice lessons everyday and make it a habit.
As I read a post about spiritual warfare, a question came to mind that I’ve had for a long time about spiritual authority. God is refining me, and even though it’s difficult and stressful, I’m so thankful that I’m in Gods refining fire. I’m reminded of a dream I had a long time ago where I was standing with a small group of people in a house, all facing in one direction. Behind us was a huge holy fire coming quickly towards us, and I was bracing myself for impact. I’m so honoured to be in Gods Holy Fire. I’m so thankful and so honoured. This gives me a good perspective, and I’m in such awe of God. I just want to say that I finally believe in prayer, and I’m so excited about it. I never thought that I didn’t believe in prayer, but I know in my heart I didn’t (when I prayed for others). Believing in prayer was like Gods love; knowing about them needed to go from knowing it in my mind to knowing it in my heart. The book, The Heart of Heaven, has had a deep impact in my heart. I’m at chapter 16, The Library of Heaven. I went to Shopgym on Monday and today and my back is doing good. Watching Matilda the Musical. Blessings and goodnight…❤️🔥
I just quickly wanted to clarify that I did believe in prayer when I was pressing into God with my prayer language. I didn’t believe for when I was praying for other people when they needed healing or when they needed help in another way. I didn’t believe that my prayers for others made an impact, but now I do.