“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.” Proverbs 3:5,6
Conversation
Papa, I’m so desperate for You!
Come My daughter, rest. I am near.
I worship You Papa. I love You so desperately! You are perfect in all of Your ways. Help me to see You more clearly. Help me to see Your ways.
My daughter, I am faithful. I am near to you.
Reflection
Hello and welcome to my journal. Life in the valley can be very difficult, but we need to remember that God is always faithful. Right now I’m in a valley, being tested and pruned so that in God’s time I’ll be ready to walk out of this valley, Victorious. What I’ve been doing as I’m waiting is spending time with God and keeping on doing what He’s already asked me to do. I’m clinging onto hope because God is my firm foundation. God is faithful and I know that He will never let me down, and I’m going to stay faithful to Him. He has shown me His faithfulness all the time and I know His love through that. God gives me dreams and wakes me up at certain times. As you read my journal my hope is that even though I’m in a valley in my life, I hope you will be inspired to always keep your heart open to God no matter what’s going on in your life, because God is a God of Love and He always has a Good plan for our life. He knows how to lead us; we just need to trust Him and follow Him! Very often God draws my heart to Him through love songs and intimacy with Him in dreams, because as part of the bride of Christ, Jesus is my husband. My love for God/Jesus keeps on growing as I continue to pursue Him. During the night God wakes me up at certain times with either a word from Him and/or a dream. So here’s my journal entry for today..
1:42 (or 1:41) “I belong to You, and that’s the truth”
2:33 “and that’s the truth…”
4:13 “And that’s the truth” in a dream I was on and jet, sitting beside a window.
6:40 “The truth is I am my Fathers child. I make Him proud and I make Him smile. I was made in the image of a perfect King.
8:37 “Understanding”
4:06 I’ll take You at Your word, if you said it I believe it.
4:14 A vision of my brother and sister in law moving. They had their car packed.
4:55 “I’ll take you at your word. If you said it I believe it.
I’m planning on going to the prayer and fasting on Tuesday. I heard someone talking about watching the episodes, Lost, and I think it’s too intense for me. I’m clinging onto hope and belief. This week my kids are going back to school, having had a few days off last week because of exam week. I need to remember that everything God does, succeeds. Blessings…
Feb 3: 2:44 I had a dream of seeing dog food being poured into a dog dish, and among the dogfood were hearts. I sensed the colour purple. I also sensed the words “Three amigos.” My regular cereal is Cheerios with hearts.
Another dream where Bella and I were in a hide and seek game; we were running to hide somewhere. Then Bella looked to see if they were coming and when she looked, they saw her. I also saw them see her as they were coming around a corner, so I saw a short wall (in height), zig zagging a short length and I ran to hide behind it and crouched down. I sensed it was a bit transparent and heard one of the kids come and find me.
A dream of taking off a rollerblade (or something) right next to a crevice with rushing water, putting it safely on the other side of the rock that I was standing next to (I was standing on the crevice side). I vaguely saw someone standing on the side where I put the rollerblade. I hadn’t taken the other one off yet. The other night I saw something that was so vague I wasn’t sure if it was anything. I saw an animal swallow a ball of light that was on the floor. I didn’t want to go to Shopgym because of my back, and also the workout looked too hard to do because I haven’t been there for two weeks.
6:47 Laviath (I heard this clearly in my mind as I was awake) When I looked up what Leviath was, I saw that it was a fire breathing crocodile, sea serpent demon. Then I remembered that I had seen the underneath of a crocodile in a dream or vision not that long ago.
7:07 vision, seeing a pair of boots on a short shelf. The shelf was just big enough to hold the boots.
Another dream I had was, I saw some dimes and a quarter on the floor (and a nickel I think), and I was picking them up. I also saw a silver coin that was slightly larger and more oblong than regular coins. I saw it in a jewelry box. I wondered what it was but didn’t take it to look at it. I wanted to but I didn’t because I had a feeling like it wasn’t mine.
This evening I had a good conversation with Bella about why it’s important to have deep conversations and learn how to have them. I explained about how deep roots of a tree, how they grow deep represent deep conversations and deep friendships. This is something we’re going to do more of together. I made a soup for supper today; I cooked a pork hock for broth and added sausages. Also kale and Italian parsley.. Blessings…🙏🏼
February 4: 12:28 I dreamt about a wedding.
4:51 “Oh hear the angel voices. Oh night, Devine. Oh night when Christ was born. Oh night, oh Holy night when Christ was born.”
I dreamt that as I went and stood at a certain spot, I would be carried in safety somewhere. Another scene where I was standing and my back was against a wall as someone was shooting bullets at me from above and from the side. And even though I couldn’t go back anymore because of the wall, the bullets nearly touched me but wizzed right by my face.
7:00 (lyrics)
7:02 “Lack of Cain”
7:04 “This is, the day you have made. Let us rejoice, rejoice and be glad in it. You are faithful to your promise, you are strong when I am weak.”
7:15 “When I stand here in Your presence I have everything I need. The joy of the Lord, the joy of the Lord is my strength.”
7:45 “6:61”
7:52 “Power 1” In my dream I saw someone making a silly video…
1:55 I had a vision of a dog licking up red blood. I saw red and the red was on its tongue. The amount was like a mouth full.
2:00 Someone gave a person who was standing in a hallway, leaning up against a wall like he was waiting to use the bathroom, an American dollar bill. I heard something about not lying.
2:25 I was standing in a field. (dream)
2:41 “Loves got a way!”
2:52 “You are faithful to Your promise You are strong when I am weak. When I stand here in Your presence I have everything I need. The joy of the Lord, the joy of the Lord is my strength!”
Feb 5: 4:05 “The truth is I am my Fathers child. I make Him proud and I make Him smile. I was made in the image of a perfect King. He looks at me and wouldn’t change a thing.”
This afternoon I’m going to help my mom. I cleaned up my bookshelf this morning, did laundry and a few other things. I had such a good time last night at the Fasting and Prayer event. Blessings…