“Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.” Psalm 23:6
Conversation
Papa, I love You. I love You Holy Spirit, and I love You Jesus. I worship You with all my heart and I’m so thankful for You, that You are a Pure and Holy God. Please draw me closer, deeper into Your heart. Please forgive me Papa when I don’t put You first or when I look at myself in any way before I look at You.
I love you My darling, My faithful one. You are Mine.
Holy Spirit I pray that You’d give me Your desires. I pray for Your filling my heart with Your presence. Show me areas in my heart where I need to give to You; I fully surrender my all to You.
My daughter, come, let your heart be at rest; My will, will come to pass. I have planted my desire in your heart. I am near.
Holy Spirit, Your love amazes me. I know Your peace and I’m so thankful for it. You sustain me all the time. Thank You for Your loving nearness.
Your welcome My daughter. Come and rest, for I am with you wherever you go.
Reflection
Hello and welcome to my journal. Life in the valley can be very difficult, but we need to remember that God is always faithful. Right now I’m in a valley, being tested and pruned so that in God’s time I’ll be ready to walk out of this valley, Victorious! What I’ve been doing as I’m waiting is spending time with God and keeping on doing what He’s already asked me to do. I’m clinging onto hope because God is my firm foundation. God is faithful and I know that He will never let me down, and I’m going to stay faithful to Him. He has shown me His faithfulness all the time and I know His love through that. God gives me dreams and wakes me up at certain times. As you read my journal my hope is that even though I’m in a valley in my life, I hope you will be inspired to always keep your heart open to God no matter what’s going on in your life, because God is a God of Love and He always has a Good plan for our life. He knows how to lead us; we just need to trust Him and follow Him! Very often God draws my heart to Him through love songs! My love for God/Jesus keeps on growing as I continue to pursue Him. During the night God wakes me up at certain times with either a word from Him and/or a dream. So here’s my journal entry for today..
8: I’m never going to forget” I saw someone begin to walk out of the room. (After coming home from the gathering I went straight to bed, feeling like I had been in a battle with giants all day long.)
2:28 Come! Like a flood! Like a fire! Holy Spirit come! Oh Holy Spirit come.” (I went downstairs to pray)
“He’s calling, He’s calling, He’s calling, come alive, come alive.”
4:13 A vision of standing in front of two big windows that were vertical, my height, and that didn’t have any glass, feeling like they were windows I could walk through. I hardly noticed the one on my right. I was looking into the one on the left; it looked like a fairytale setting, with green grass, blue sky and had some white things like feathers or something, floating gently in the wind. (I went back up) I’m sensing this represents another opportunity… standing on the left.
5:33 I was holding a stack of white papers in my hands, in front of my face. Vision This morning I took a big stack of written prayer conversations that were in my blue folder; I need to find a place to put them. I’ve kept all my conversations with the Lord in my desk, and now my desk is full.
5:41 I vaguely had papers in my hand and driving south. This morning I’m doing my devotions with God at Oakridge.
6:02 “North Pacific, South Pacific” In my dream someone came to visit me in my home. We were downstairs in the basement. I only had a shirt on but I didn’t notice (meaning that I’m being transparent). Only later I noticed; someone was going to follow me so I grabbed a clean navy blue towel from a hook and wrapped it around my waist (there were two blue towels hanging, the one on the left was dirty and the one on the right was clean, and I grabbed the one on my right. I was going to be walking in front of someone as we were walking across the room and I didn’t want to make him look at me on the way there.
Someone said a few little things and then he wanted to play a game that was there. The ping pong table was there and there was another small table beside that one. Then he had a small rubber ball in his hands. There were two other girls there who were going to play with them; his wife was there too. During my dream I had touched him on his shoulder a few times (two times) and I didn’t want to give her the wrong impression so I also touched her on her shoulder as I spoke to her. She was smiling at me as she stood beside her husband. I saw his back I think when she smiled at me. Then it was the ping pong table they were playing, with the other two girls. Then the ball landed on the floor and rolled underneath something but was still very visible, and he went to get it, going on his hands and knees in front of me to my left.
In one scene there was a small child who was telling me something that her older brother was doing (I didn’t really understand what she was saying but I had the sense that it had something to do with her.) He was going to play ping pong or something but then before doing that he pulled out an inflatable pool for his younger sister. He walked over to the sink and began filling it up with water. I had seen that it had been flat as he was pulling it out by then I saw that it was already filled with a lot of water (the water made it not flat anymore). I think I had asked to fill it up the rest of the way so I was holding it underneath the spout, filling it (there was a lot of water in front of the spout, so I needed to lean way over to get to the spout, but this is vague). I wasn’t sure how full he wanted it so I filled it to the top and thought he could pour some out if he wanted to make it the right amount, which he did. I watched him take it and carefull pour some out, eyeing the right amount. The pool had become small like a round floating tube for small kids.
Then I was going back upstairs and saw my kids dad standing in front of his coffee machine, making himself a latte before going to work. Then I was going back downstairs; I was going down slowly like I was on an elevator with no walls. I was looking straight ahead, then up to the ceiling and saw the underneath side of the stairs going up. Then I saw as I was being brought down, two papers that were folded and taped on the wall that had numbers written on them. I could see the indented parts where there was writing on the other side. On the way down before that there was a small square platform that I was brought passed, and thought that this is what he saw when he came into the basement.
6:59 I vaguely remember seeing papers, that I had given papers to someone.
8:02 “Excitement in the book of Joshua and Rebecca” (I heard these words in my heart right before waking up.)
In a dream at night I was with a group of ladies and one of them was using a breast pump, putting milk into a container. I could see her emotion as she was pumping and I said that I remember the feeling of breast feeding (one of the most fulfilling experiences of my life). The container was full and she said something like “only six cups can fit in it today.” I was looking at it and thought there was room for a little bit more. She had more to give, but it only had room for six cups. This morning I had a Pumpkin Spice Latte and also a pumpkin cream cheese dessert at Oakridge. I’m sensing to order 5 more “cups,” at church or when I go for coffee with others.
My day yesterday was a difficult one, feeling like I was facing a big giant in the room. When I said exactly how it was, that I wasn’t working yet (this isn’t where God is leading me in my purpose), I felt like I had just overcome it; I was the elephant in the room.
My heart shattered when I learned I hadn’t made it on Sunday, but I know that the Holy Spirit is teaching me how to hear and follow Him, so I know that my walk with Him is a treasure. I’m sensing to stand on the left side of the stage (window on my left in my dream), and also hold the microphone in my left hand. I’m going to my moms right after this and taking her shopping at Sobeys if she still needs. I’m coming to church tonight; Bella has a volleyball game that her dad will go to, and I’m hoping Lucas will come with me tonight. Blessings and love…🫰🏼