Joy is my Strength!!

“The Spirit of the Lord will rest on him— the Spirit of Wisdom and of understanding, the Spirit of counsel and of power, the Spirit of knowledge and of the fear of the Lord.”

  Isaiah 11:2

Conversation

Papa, I love You. I love You Holy Spirit!

I love you My darling. Come, you are Mine.

I worship You Papa with all my heart. Help me to follow You tomorrow when I know I’ll need to hear Your voice.

I am with you always My dear one.

I ask for Your wisdom, understanding and discernment as I seek to follow You. Holy Spirit, is there a word I need to hear?

My daughter, all is well with you. Rest, you are Mine.

Holy Spirit, I feel like I’m going to need to face a big giant tomorrow. Help me to stand firm with resolve, staying at rest in You.

The joy of the Lord is your strength.

Thank-You Holy Spirit. You are so great, and Your love endures forever! 

Reflection

Hello and welcome to my journal. Life in the valley can be very difficult, but we need to remember that God is always faithful. Right now I’m in a valley, being tested and pruned so that in God’s time I’ll be ready to walk out of this valley, Victorious!  What I’ve been doing as I’m waiting is spending time with God and keeping on doing what He’s already asked me to do. I’m clinging onto hope because God is my firm foundation. God is faithful and I know that He will never let me down, and I’m going to stay faithful to Him. He has shown me His faithfulness all the time and I know His love through that. God gives me dreams and wakes me up at certain times. As you read my journal my hope is that even though I’m in a valley in my life, I hope you will be inspired to always keep your heart open to God no matter what’s going on in your life, because God is a God of Love and He always has a Good plan for our life. He knows how to lead us; we just need to trust Him and follow Him! Very often God draws my heart to Him through love songs! My love for God/Jesus keeps on growing as I continue to pursue Him. During the night God wakes me up at certain times with either a word from Him and/or a dream. So here’s my journal entry for today..

11:.. I saw a car that was tilted, unbalanced. (Yesterday I didn’t spend time in the Bible, doing other things. I know it’s important so I will make this a daily habit. In another scene my friend and I were walking down a dark alley; she was walking me home. Then I thought, who would walk her home? I heard behind us, guys who had come out to drink. 

A scene where I was pretending to be a doll and a young boy was believing it. I was pretending to be lifeless (he lifted my “lifeless” arm (could this mean that I’m trying not to follow Jesus in my own strength? I’m going to press into the Lord more about this).

12:04 “Let faith arise”

3:59 I woke up and then I heard the word “come” in my heart very clearly, so after a few breaths I got up and came. I had some dreams; hopefully I’ll remember them.

5:24 I had a vision that I was in the sanctuary, right in front of someone, maybe the pastor or Jesus, and I had the honour of being able to have their complete attention, like I had them all to myself. It was like the sanctuary had been full of people but now they had all disappeared, even the chairs. The whole room was empty and I was standing before Jesus. There was a Holy feeling, and I sense that I was smiling.

5:39 I think I had just started to fall asleep when I saw in a dream, a door that was wide open, and I saw that inside the door was shining bright yellow, like a bright light was on. The door was a bit small, like it was across an open space. 

Holy Spirit, what does the vision about the sanctuary represent?

I heard the word, “clean.” Is there anything more Holy Spirit? 

5:47 Believe

5:55 In a vision I heard something about “I wish something was revealed to you.” (These words weren’t clear, so I’m hoping I got it right.) I also saw someone begin taking a cover off of a couch. I saw the colour green; the couch or the cover.

6:07 In a vision I saw someone in a room, like a changing room, taking a light blue gown, sensing it had been hanging on a hanger there. I also saw a part of a white dress with a pink (and other colours) flower design on it.

6:18 I had a vision of seeing a truck with a big white water tank on it. Vaguely seeing it park on a parking lot that had trees in the background. 

6:24 In a vision I saw a wooden gate that had a handle on the side, being closed, but as soon as it was shut, the other side of the same door opened, like the door had a handle on both sides. opening the door from the other side. 

6:30 In a vision I saw the colour orange and the pudgy legs of a baby.

6:32 In a vision I saw a green sleeping bag with red material in the inside.

6:34 I heard in my heart, “I’ve been waiting for you to come back” the emphasis was on, “come back.”

6:44 I had fallen asleep and I heard, “behave yourself.”

6:55 In this dream I was writing a word on the top of a woman’s foot, and the word “beautiful” on her big toe. Before waking up I was positioning her foot so that I could write it in a way that she would read it every time she’d look at her foot (right side up, not upside down), and big enough so she would see it (right across the middle of her toe). I always try and hide my feet because of my toes:) 

7:16 In my dream I saw a big circle with a hole in the middle. I think the circle was turning. The circle was wide, going counter clockwise.

7:21 “Pray in tongues.” I heard in a dream.

7:33 “okay it goes like this” and  “a girl was sponsoring..”

7:36 “adhere” (listen)

8:02 I was in a room full of people who were sitting in their chair; they were the audience, waiting to watch a competition which was about to start. At first I was standing at the front with my back against the wall (facing the audience.) There was a long window there. I was noticing my shadow on the wall on the other side of the room. I was noticing a person on my right and their shadow. Then that person had come closer on my right side and had turned around to face the window (and me) and was beginning to dance. Then a person on my left side started to dance(also facing the window), and then I said something like “it didn’t take much” for me to join them, and I stepped in, turned around to also face the window, and began to dance. Our dance was a synchronized dance that we had practiced the night before, but I couldn’t remember it so I was copying the person on my left. The first move was a one arm circle (right arm), counter clockwise, then with the same arm push to the left two times with the fingers pointing straight out (I vaguely remember two fingers like the peace sign). Then a few moves were added from what we had practiced, and as I was copying the person, I remembered them.

Then the scene changed where a woman had an opened book in front of her and she had written some notes on toilet paper to remember some of the things she had read. It looked like she was a bit nervous or flustered, saying that she needed to write every word she wanted to remember or be specific about her notes, kind of looking down on herself about needing to be specific in order to remember. I said quietly that it’s okay, and that I do the same thing. There was a little girl who was with her, sitting beside her on her left, looking at what she was doing. I was on her right (my left).

As I was sitting at my desk yesterday I noticed one of the books on my desk, Feeler, by James Goll, reminding me of my dream where I heard the name James (Discovering How Sensitivity Helps You Discern And Act On Gods Voice). This is my sisters book, one that I’ve been meaning to read. Im going to start reading it today. Im nearly done my marriage book! Blessings and love…

October 23:10:58 In a vision I saw a lady with an apron on, jump into something, reminding me of the trampoline park. 

I woke up around 6:00, hearing my phone alarm in my mind; I forgot to put my phone alarm on so I didn’t go to Shopgym. I woke up at 2 something and I always sense to get up, but because it wasn’t as strong today I fell back asleep, thinking I’d get up the next time I woke up. I heard the Lord say “grace” in my heart.

6:38 I sensed the number 7.

7:19 In a vision or dream I saw someone had just come through the door with a red sweater on, reminds me of a red sweater I have. I’ve had it for a long time so it looks a bit faded. Thinking about tonight, the last time I bounced back onto my back and was surprised that I couldn’t hold my neck, and I hurt it because of it.

Guess what I ate as a snack when we got home? Yogurt! I had yogurt with grapes and strawberries. God is so good. I did two front flips (something I hadn’t done since I was a teenager) and landed first on my butt and then flat on my back! I also followed and let someone push me off the edge and landed flat on my back in something like an air filled puffy floor (that’s the best way I can describe it!) That was also difficult to do but I sensed Jesus leading me to do that so I did. My heart is at rest. My word for someone today at Soar was something I feel for myself too, and that is, in quietness and trust is my strength. Joy too, and I still have joy in my heart. I feel very much at peace actually… I’m so thankful for this wonderful journey that I’m on with Jesus, and that the Holy Spirit is training me to hear His voice in preparation for the purpose He’s given me. God is so good to me. I know that my heart has landed on Jesus; he is completely trustworthy, I know this full well….

October 24: 1:26 I saw an indigenous group of people. Someone was holding a teenager about shoulder height and she was a bit groggy as she called, mom, mom. I had a feeling like she was about to be killed. 

3:31 I had a dream but I forgot it. 

3:32 “hello” very clearly. Then shortly after that I was still awake and I felt a soft physical touch on my left arm, and there was nobody there. So I’m sensing this was from God. 

5:06 In a vision I saw someone laying down prostrate on the ground. It was like I was by the walkway close to the south doors and he was on the ground underneath the tree that’s on the grass a little ways away. 

5:12 I had a vision of Jesus walking to the left and taking something, feeling like food, from the left. It’s like he was walking down an aisle and he turned to the left and stood facing me like there was a table there that he was taking something from. Holy Spirit what do You mean about that?  

5:28 “oh okay” I heard a guy’s voice saying this.

5:33 I had a vision that someone had been holding a white door open, and then he was letting it close as he began walking away from it. I was on the outside of the door and before the door could close, a boy stood in the opening, preventing the door from closing so we could walk through it. 

5:41 “I didn’t take very much for that sticker” I had a vision of a woman walking out of a library or in a library, I’m not sure.

5:46 “We went to two Tim’s one day.” I had a vision of a girl, maybe Bella, taking big steps and kind of running. We were on the school grounds and Bella was telling me this, that she had gone to Tim Hortins twice in one day. 

5:50 “Do you have portions of the rock music?” Jesus my husband asked me this. I vaguely saw he had his arms on a small table and he was in the motion of leaning back against the backrest, seeing his arms slide on the table with him as he was leaning back. 

5:56 “Never look back I’ll never look back I’m Yours.” Lyrics

5:59 “and these hands you hold, will always hold you up (when the strength you have, isn’t strong enough)…”

6:03 “excellent! Kicking butt” seeing in a vision a guy lifting one of their legs like to go over something.

6:06 “Look over your shoulder. Don’t close your eyes.”

6:16 “that was amazing. Such a beautiful day.”

6:19 A vision of seeing Jesus walking light heartedly on the roof of the church.. 

6:23 I dreamt or it was a vision, of being in Costco. It was empty of people, after hours.

6:34can you image living here day after day? A family was living on an island that had a lot of snow on it. I saw a mound of snow and knew it was their home. I also knew they didn’t have school. I looked and saw the beginning of a sunrise. I saw one man standing there. This was like a lesson or story I was telling Bella, about this piece of history. 

6:44 “only in dreams they walk on water.”

7:00 A beautiful day

7:15 my alarm went off to get up. ( I fell back sleep)

7:16 “Bigger the battle. Greater my faith. There is no giant, you cannot slay. We’re stronger than 10,000 armies, stronger than 10,000. In my dream I was in a house and I saw a plant with long leaves like a spider plant, looking like it was desperate for water.

I know God is with me, and now that I’m more awake, I don’t feel alone. I still have hope and I have peace in my heart. I’m just not sure which class to take yet. But I’m excited for the day….🙏🏼

October 24 evening: 10:38 In my dream I saw about three people standing in line facing me, and there was a woman who made the choice of dancing with the man on her right (my left), and he was exactly the right person for her. She had made the right choice; I had a feeling like she was surprised that her choice was such a good one. I saw them dancing together with so much joy and intimacy, They both were shorter people, they both were a bit pudgy, and they looked so homey together. She was smiling as she rested into him. This speaks of being intimate with Jesus.

October 25: 5:37 “Everything I do, I do to honour you.”

7:02 “Your name, is the highest, Your name, is the greatest,” (“Your name, stands above them all. All throne and dominions, all powers, and positions Your name, stands above them all. All the angels cry, Holy, all the people cry, Holy. You are lifted high, Holy, Holy forever!!”) 🫰🏼

October 26: 2:31 “I’ll never look back I’ll never look back I’m yours.” I heard these lyrics in my heart right before waking up.

4:33 “countdown” (heard this in my heart right before waking up.)

4:36 Feeling so unworthy. I had a vague dream that someone got squished between the wall and the door as someone came hurriedly through the door, seeing their legs and arms open, both in a V. This is when I went downstairs to pray. My seat was A7

Last night I had fallen asleep and woke up almost right away with hearing something like, “we just need to oppose him.” 

5:48 “Our God is mighty to save, mighty to save, forever, author of salvation. My God is mighty to save, mighty to save.” (I was awake and this song came to mind.)

6:28 “I am near to the broke hearted, to those who are crushed in spirit.” Came into my thoughts.

6:48 a vision of sitting across from Connie and she was telling me about something and said, “real whipping cream.”

6:54 “As I’m driving” (discerning as I’m walking?)

6:57 “Tell everyone to get off their location.”

6:59 I saw in a vision my foot (I had my shoe on) was in a white paper cup, and I saw a few pieces of dog food by my foot, in the paper lining.

7:03 I saw the foyer was empty, no people and no chairs. I was in the middle, looking towards the World Cafe. I’m sensing there will be something important here.

7:23 “the ups and downs, the highs and lows, into faith I go”

7.55 into faith I go. I had also dreamt of something but that faded quickly.

758 “rolling into first” (base?) (sensing to sit in the pastors seat..)

8:02 people pleasers 

8:19 walking into the cockpit, into the front of the plane. (Pastors seat and possibly walk to the front?)

8:36 “Marry you?” Someone was asking, a pastor was asking us if he could be the pastor to marry us (to follow Jesus) (I’m going to be asked a question?)

8:40 in a vision I saw there were cars all around a white car, and I came up behind this car that was surrounded, feeling like that car (person) was being prayed for. (I prayed for someone, two people)

8:44 Someone opened a kitchen drawer and I heard, “eat something…”

8:48 “in order to “ In a vision I saw a younger version of Jesus, wearing a purple hoody. (I posted a photo of me when I was younger. My hair stressed me out back then.)

8:54 a vision of washing white dishes.

9:00 a vision of watching a small car driving slowly into a gas station. (I need to go up for prayer, maybe ask another question?)

9:03 a vision of seeing pastors and leaders lining up in a row in front. I saw Jesus squeezing into the line a bit to the left of me, and the feeling I had was I needed to be directly across from him. Vaguely sensing I was already sitting so I needed to move a bit to the left in order to sit across from him. I need to pray into this.

9:09 I heard “Tea” in my heart, sensing being around the youth room or world cafe..

9:13 A vision of  a new house that was built at an angle in a corner. 

9:14 seeing a big roll of green wrapping tissue, like it was a roll of material.

9:19 a vision of seeing a pot of small yellow daisies that were put right in front of me, like there was a table in front of me.

9:21 “when you drive its gotta be crazy”  While awake I heard this in my heart. I bound the enemy’s thoughts away from me and also my own, and I welcomed the Holy Spirit. 

9:25 I saw a table full of what felt like garden vegetables that were ripe. I saw an orange pumpkin on the floor. This morning someone who had an orange shirt on was sitting on the floor in the front.

9:28 “You’re stronger than you think you are” In the vision I saw a really tall person in the foyer. He was so tall that he needed to duck in order to not hit the structures on the ceiling. He was wearing a navy blue dress shirt…

9:35 in a dream I was in a river, doing the back stroke , and there was a boat in front of me to the right, like they were watching to make sure I was okay. Today while in worship I had my arms out in circular motion.

Around 9:50 In my dream my husband and I were in our truck and I saw an empty parking lot that had deep ridges that were made from tractor tires (like it must have rained). The ground was black mud, and it was like it had been tilled like in a garden, except the whole parking lot had deep ridges like a big tractor had driven in rows. I vaguely saw a big vehicle parked on the right and my husband turned right to go onto the parking lot. I was thinking that as we were driving, the wheels of the truck would cause the ridges to go down like dominoes, and we’d drive on the parking lot with no problem. But as we drove, the wheels got stuck right away.
Then the scene changed where there was a guy in front of us. I don’t know why we were exchanging money but I have a feeling like he asked if we had money and I think I had a twenty dollar bill. Then my husband asked if he had money, and he did. He quickly got out a five dollar bill, and we needed to give him change for it. Then my husband was holding out the palm of his hand, and his hand was filled with change. The guy was also holding out the palm of his hand and I saw that my husband had already given him a loonie and some quarters and was going to give him more quarters. I saw a toonie among the change in my husbands hand but took two loonies to give him so that he wouldn’t have so much change, but my husband wanted to give him the quarters and caused me to put the two loonies back into his hand. Then I thought, why am I trying to help? The exchange was between them, so I began walking away, letting go of trying to direct or be in charge. 

2:22 I fell asleep momentarily while sitting with my kids on the couch and dreamt that the underneath part of my shoes were a bright orange. I played Mariocart with Lucas, collecting coins. I’m sure there’s more to that, but I still need to pray into what the money represents. This morning I made eggs and put garlic, cayenne pepper, seasoning salt, a bit of Johnny’s seasoning and Brussels sprouts. 

4:19 I was reading and fell asleep; I dreamt of seeing a woman climb up into the drivers side of a big semi truck. She was wearing beige pants. 

4:28 I was feeling like I had no hope about tomorrow, and in a dream I saw an average looking guy meet a girl and heard, “hi, I’m fear, I’m Carolyn.” After this I got up and spent some time praying in my prayer language. During my prayer time I heard Holy Spirit say, “I will guide you.”
❤️‍🔥 I had a pumpkin spice latte, and I’m wearing my “She Speaks” necklace; I put a pendant that says “Soar” on it.

October 27: 4:28 And the angels cry, Holy, all creation cries, Holy. You will always be, Holy, Holy forever. A thousand generations, falling down in worship, to sing the song of ages to the lamb. 

5:44 I need a Holy Ghost, waking in my soul.”

5:52 “Why didn’t you tell me that earlier?” Holy Spirit, what do I need to know right now? I had a vision of my husband eating a blueberry pie; the pie was on the table in front of him, and the pie didn’t have a crust at the top, so I could see all the blueberries. He was eating the blueberries. I didn’t see him eating them; I had a knowing that that’s what he was doing.

6:07 “rejected first”

6:09 “I need help”

6:11 In a vision I saw a girl wearing a flowery dress. At the top the dress looked like a vest with a white T-shirt underneath. She ran up to me; We were on a sidewalk in the city and she went to my left.

6:19 “Tell her we were always so sorry..” I’m sensing this represents that my husband feels sorry about not showing emotion… that’s okay, there’s nothing to forgive because I know how hard this must be for him too. I know it’s needed because this is the only way. I know in my heart that my husband loves me, so it’s okay… 🙏🏼 If this is about me feeling ignored, it’s okay too because I know how hard it must be after probably feeling rejected time and time again. The thing is, I can’t help these quick reactions I have. When my husband feels rejected, I do too, not by him but by my own heart. This is the way the Holy Spirit is caring for me and for us; God wants my heart to be made whole before my next step with Jesus…When I don’t make it represents that I need more healing. The day that I don’t need any more healing (not that I’ve “Arrived”) is the day I’ve understood and was able to follow Jesus…

6:21 I saw a big bowl of noodles in front of me; someone eating a bowl of noodles. Someone in Collide said something today about a bowl full of noodles.

6:24 Vaguely seeing a blanket being covered over me, like I was going to bed. (Vision)

6:26 I saw the bottom half of a dress: it was light blue and had designs on it. (Vision)

6:29 “Hi” in a vision or dream I saw a boy had an Oreo cookie in his mouth, and a girl was attracted to him and came to him like a magnet. When she came to him he said hi.

6:43 In a dream I heard, “and every one those dreams” (counted up to something).

6:53 I dreamt there was a group of us. There was something like a drone, recording, and towards the end I had the view point of the drone so wherever it went, I went to like I was attached to it. It was recording from above, through an opening like a doorway. Then, being attached to it, I was really high and I came down very quickly along a wall and it gave me a rush. Then without stopping I began going backwards quickly and I was feeling like I was pressing in with my legs which made me go even faster, and I was loving it.. it was such a rush. Then the scene changed where the group of us were together and whatever we had been doing was done. We were standing together and I said something like this being our graduation, our graduating class. There was a bowl of chips people were eating from, and the chip I was trying to take broke in half, so I had two chips in my hand. As we were standing at a table, taking something I think and then walking somewhere I asked a lady how she had enjoyed the rushing part and I sensed she said something like it was a bit much for her. She had hair like mine. I forgot to say that in my dream I had dreamt that my hair was wet while at this party, and in my dream my hair was wet! I realized that in my dream, and I was running and really excited about it!
Then the scene changed where I was in a really nice house, in the kitchen. It was early in the morning and there was a group of teenagers walking past the kitchen windows. The kitchen was high up so I only saw their heads. There was a window above the kitchen sink and also one on the wall beside that one, and the group of teenagers had walked around the corner to walk by that window, which was kind of like a bay window (one window but had three together). Both sets of these windows were open. The group was loud, saying something like everyone was up already. I was given a silver mug one of them had used to drink water, and I put it onto the counter. Then I thought to get a glass of water. There was a short scene somewhere in the dream where a lady had a small black dog and as it was laying on the ground, I was petting it. Im sensing and hoping that I will make it today; I will be able to hear the Holy Spirit and be able to follow Him. 

As I was pressing in last night, I had a vision or dream about putting something white into something like a piggy bank. I had a vision of a woman’s jeans that she had on. I saw a huge hole in the back. I didn’t see her skin, just that her jeans had a hole in it. Then I saw the front and it looked normal. I have no idea what this could represent. I had another vision of picking up my beige purse and my matching wallet.

As we were walking in the middle of the seats, I was pressing into the Lord as to where I should sit. I heard “middle.” I was still thinking to sit in the pastors seat because of my dream about climbing into the drivers seat of a big semi, but after I saw that the microphone was by the pastors seat, I sensed to sit in the seat on the left side of it (then I had peace about sitting in the middle section) because of the dream about a newly built house being at the corner. I was silly and sat on the pastors seat for a few seconds:) I texted in a question and afterwards I went and sat on the left side in the chapel to talk about my question. For praying for people I prayed for the teenager sitting behind me, and I noticed the line of people standing on the right side afterwards. I quickly raised my hand to say yes about following Jesus and I quickly went to join the line. Then walked to stand in front of one of the leaders. There was a group of people right in front so I needed to move closer to be able to stand right in front, so that’s what I did… I interrupted and said hi. Then I sensed to take a blueberry dessert from the left side, and then I went to the chapel and sat on the left side, thinking about L standing on the left side (which originated from my dream about seeing two full length windows, the one on the left was open and had a blue sky and green grass). I ate my blueberry dessert by eating it in pieces like in my dream where the person was eating the individual blueberries on the pie. Then I went to the kiosk and gave towards missions. I sensed yesterday how much to give after I pressed into the Lord and sensed that the white paper thing that was put into a slot in my dream represented a white envelope. Then I went to the World Cafe and ordered a loose leaf tea (burgundy in colour which represents wine for a toast), and had it made in my Yeti mug. In my dream last night someone who was walking past the first set of windows (after the first service), gave me a silver mug that I saw they drank water from. The tea of course is made with water. Then I heard someone say something about apple crisp, so I ordered an apple jack, not realizing there was an apple crisp latte. While standing in line someone asked me if I could help in the world cafe after the second service, and I immediately said yes. I’m thinking this could represent the question in my dream when a pastor asked me if he could be the one to marry Jesus and I. Then after Collide I went to volunteer at the World Cafe. I was told that my job was to steam the milk, so that’s what I did. The way the person makes the drinks is different than how I normally do it, and I had to bite my tongue several times from telling her a quicker way. I think this represents my dream where I wanted to give the person bigger coins so they wouldn’t have so much change, but the person that I was with (who I felt had authority) wanted give quarters instead, so I submitted and put the change back into his hand so that he could do as he wanted. Though when she was steaming the milk for someone, I said that that was my job! I’m hoping that that was okay! Then after I cleaned up the machine she said that I didn’t need to do it all and she could do the rest, I stopped cleaning right away. So I hope I heard correctly today? I also prayed with the Kids Rock team, praying that we as leaders to be the bridge for the kids to know Jesus’ love better. I also raised my hand to follow Jesus, and raised my hand (left) to be one of the people to pray for others. 
Every time we volunteer at the World Cafe, we get to make a drink for free so I ordered an Apple Crisp Latte, which she made for me. I put some whipping cream on it, and she finished it with a new can. I’m thinking that the second set of windows in my dream (a bay window made in three parts (and the window was open) represents the that I ordered the ACL after the second service. I didn’t see the three parts of the window, but the part I did see reminds me of that kind of window. Hoping I graduated today!!!! I saw someone wearing a hoodie, and the pastor was wearing a blue shirt. I wore a burgundy blouse that represents a burgundy hoodie (youthful). The reason I looked to see if the Apple Crisp was a latte was when I heard J order one. Changing the subject, last Wednesday when we went to Flying Squirrel, the first time I did a flip, I landed funny on my butt; my legs were kind of to the side and I hurt my left leg right underneath my hip. Since then it’s healed but this afternoon I was getting up from laying in my bed, I put my left foot onto the floor and hurt that muscle. It just reminded me of the sermon today.
This morning I also walked forward in worship as the lyrics, “I ran out of the grave” were sung. This came to mind after seeing someone do that, reminding me of in my dream I was running and smiling. Tonight we’re going to watch a movie called “Green Book,” a real life story about someone who plays the piano. This wasn’t my idea; I didn’t know about this movie but it sounds very interesting.

It’s a really good movie.. After the movie was done it was stopped when it was exactly 7:29 min left.. Someone brought chips to the couch and I started eating them and then stopped, feeling like I shouldn’t. In my dream a small group of people were all facing one direction, eating them, and beside me on my left was a man. In my dream the chip I took was broken in two in my hand (I think when I took it, it wasn’t broken), and I started eating them when I woke up (I saw a hand taking a big chip that was curved like a C (the open side was facing the rest of the chips) before the one I saw in my hand was broken). In waking life there were two kinds of chips in the bowl (Miss Vickie’s salt and vinegar and Tortilla chips), but I only chose miss vickies. It was during this time that I said something in my dream about graduating. I’m going to press into the Lord about the meaning. I’m not sure if I made it or not, but I’m sure the Lord will let me know. I’m kind of feeling like I didn’t, but I know my faith is growing and I can feel God’s love in my heart. I guess I don’t know what it feels like to have made it. I’m looking forward to hearing from God this night, and I know He is always with me whether I’ve made it or not. Goodnight…