“For God did not give us a spirit of fear, but of power, love and a sound mind.”
2Timothy 1:7
Conversation
Papa, I love You.
I love you My darling; you are Mine.
Papa, I worship You. Thank-You for Your way with me. I feel like You’re taking good care of me as I’m going through these difficult times. Thank-You for always being near.
Come My daughter, the time is near.
Papa, I feel so inadequate, but I’m ready for You to lead me out of what’s keeping me from going forward.
Come My darling. I will lead you in the way you should go. All things are possible with Me.
I love You Lord. Please wake me up and help me see where You are, and help me hear Your still small voice when I feel pressure to make a decision about where to go or what to do. Please enable me to follow You.
I will come My faithful one.
Reflection
Hello and welcome to my journal. Life in the valley can be very difficult, but we need to remember that God is always faithful. Right now I’m in a valley, being tested and pruned so that in God’s time I’ll be ready to walk out of this valley, Victorious! What I’ve been doing as I’m waiting is spending time with God and keeping on doing what He’s already asked me to do. I’m clinging onto hope because God is my firm foundation. God is faithful and I know that He will never let me down, and I’m going to stay faithful to Him. He has shown me His faithfulness all the time and I know His love through that. God gives me dreams and wakes me up at certain times. As you read my journal my hope is that even though I’m in a valley in my life, I hope you will be inspired to always keep your heart open to God no matter what’s going on in your life, because God is a God of Love and He always has a Good plan for our life. He knows how to lead us; we just need to trust Him and follow Him! Very often God draws my heart to Him through love songs! My love for God/Jesus keeps on growing as I continue to pursue Him. During the night God wakes me up at certain times with either a word from Him and/or a dream. So here’s my journal entry for today..
12;16 I had a vision of being among a people like at a mall, and the feeling I had was that it was Christmas, shopping and getting ready for Christmas.
12:24 I had a feeling of being with DA.
12:27 A vague dream about seeing a colourful walking parrot.
12:30 Feeling like I was at church.(it was 12:29: I’m just sleepy so I didn’t check the time right away.
12:37 I had or I gave a down payment for a house.
1:07 I dreamt that I was in the bathroom. There was a chair close to me that was full of stuff. I heard a noise and I looked and saw the strap of my purse and knew that by morning, someone was going to steal what was in my purse. So I quickly grabbed the strap to take my purse. I believe this represents that I haven’t been spending time with God in the Bible. My desk and chair had become filled with stuff. I”m realizing how important it is to spend time in the Bible.
11:20 I heard “a huge celebration of teens supper.”
2;35 In my dream a small animal was being gently carried down to the ground. Shortly after this I heard the Holy Spirit say in my heart to come, that He requires it, so I went downstairs to pray. I believe this represents that I was on an emotional high on Sunday, being filled with hope that I had been able to follow Jesus that day. This morning was difficult as reality sunk in.
So as I’m praying in my prayer language I recognize that I became stuck when I turned immediately to the right aisle; I should have gone where I later saw the row of people. As I at first began walking into the aisle right beside me, I had a thought of going to the far right by the wall, but I dismissed it, thinking I was remembering when I had walked there on Thursday night.
3:04 I vaguely heard in my heart, “it’s not too late.”
I’m also understanding that when the small group of people walked around the corner in my dream represented that I needed to walk around the corner to stand with them as they were praying for people. I’m sorry Papa. Then I also understand that I should have recognized what to order (the Latte) right when I heard it. I didn’t see that that was an option, so I thought what was meant was the apple turnover, which I ordered right away. Okay, now I know how much I misunderstood..
“I need You Lord, oh Your mercy never fails me. All my days, I’ve been held in Your hands. From the moment that I wake up, until I lay my head, oh I will sing, of the Goodness of God. All my life You have been faithful. All my life You have been so, so Good. With every breath that I am able, I will sing, of the Goodness of God.” I love Your voice. You have led me through the fire. And in darkest night, You are close like no other. I know You as a Father, I know You as a friend. And I have lived, in the Goodness of God. Your Goodness is running after, is running after me. With my life laid down I’m surrendered now I give You everything. Your Goodness is running after, is running after me.”
I’m sensing that Holy Spirit is gently letting me know that I didn’t make it yesterday.
3:25 Come, it’s not too late.
Holy Spirit, as I’m not getting it, I’m also learning what Your voice sounds like, and it sure is gentle. I really want to keep going because I know that I can be trained by You.
Come
I’m coming Papa, Holy Spirit.
You are Mine, My daughter. Draw near to Me, and I will be near to you. Rest.
3:31 Holy Spirit, I do have hope, and I love my walk with You. I read last night on WPeter’s post that I need to begin living in what I already know to do, and that is to practice my voice every day, to paint, to enjoy life at home and become the mom that I always wished I could be like. I know I can do this when I don’t loose Gods joy in my heart when circumstances around me aren’t to my favour.
“I have faith in what I see. I’ve met an angel, in person, she looks perfect tonight…
3:46 Come My daughter, rest, you are Mine.
The only things I got right were sitting at “the corner,” asking a question, choosing the left side to get my blueberry dessert, left side in the chapel, and eating it during my conversation, saying yes when I was asked to help, not giving advice while helping. Walking forward a bit during worship, standing right in front of, saying hi… I’m wondering if these were correct..
4:25 In a vision I saw a woman wearing a pleated skirt, reminding me of the one I have. I only saw her skirt and that she was walking towards me. I’ll wear it this Sunday.
6;39 I put my faith in Jesus, my anchor to the ground.
I was sitting with a small group of people, maybe around ten. We were all sitting on the floor I think, and I had a feeling and a desire to be married to Jesus… We we were sitting in a circle, feeling like we were getting married and they were our wedding party, witnesses and audience…. I’m glad my heart keeps on being exposed, recognizing that God is for me and not against me… Blessings and love….❤️🔥 Goodnight…