“Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead. I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 3:13-14
Conversation
I love You Papa, Holy Spirit, and I worship You. I pray that You would put Your words in my mouth Holy Spirit. I submit my will to You. I am Yours and You are mine.
I love you My daughter. Come and be at rest.
ThankYou Holy Spirit for all the work You’ve done in my heart and in my life. I know Your love. Holy Spirit, do You have a word for me today?
Secure
Holy Spirit I’m sensing that I am secure in You. Help me not to be anxious about tomorrow.
I am with you always My dear one, and I will help you.
I trust in You Holy Spirit. Thank-You.
Reflection
Hello and welcome to my journal. Life in the valley can be very difficult, but we need to remember that God is always faithful. Right now I’m in a valley, being tested and pruned so that in God’s time I’ll be ready to walk out of this valley, Victorious! What I’ve been doing as I’m waiting is spending time with God and keeping on doing what He’s already asked me to do. I’m clinging onto hope because God is my firm foundation. God is faithful and I know that He will never let me down, and I’m going to stay faithful to Him. He has shown me His faithfulness all the time and I know His love through that. God gives me dreams and wakes me up at certain times. As you read my journal my hope is that even though I’m in a valley in my life, I hope you will be inspired to always keep your heart open to God no matter what’s going on in your life, because God is a God of Love and He always has a Good plan for our life. He knows how to lead us; we just need to trust Him and follow Him! Very often God draws my heart to Him through love songs! My love for God/Jesus keeps on growing as I continue to pursue Him. During the night God wakes me up at certain times with either a word from Him and/or a dream. So here’s my journal entry for today..
2:12 “You will always be, Holy, Holy forever.”
4:40 “All the angels cry, Holy. All creation cries, Holy. You will always be, Holy, Holy forever! If you’ve been forgiven, if you’ve been redeemed, sing this song forever to the lamb.”
5:38/39 “live free and find purpose” (
5:45 In a vision I saw a purple sweater.
5:53 Hearing something about being “out of the woods,” and “the lamb.”
6:00 I heard something about “starting it.”
7:38/39 “35:34” (I heard these numbers. I hadn’t looked at the time right away)
In a dream we were moving into a house. My husband was getting the truck to back up in front of the front door to bring in all our furniture. Then an older lady parked there and I told her that my husband was getting the truck so I asked if she could move. Then we were in the new house (not newly built) on the main floor. Then I thought that we knew what the main floor looked like and we should explore the other floors. There was a scene where I saw the people who had lived there before had left all their furniture, and in my dream this was a good thing. I was looking at one of them, drawers, and thought it was nice (all the drawers were empty). Then I saw where a bed would go for one of the kids, and I saw a vent that was basically all open along the wall, underneath where the bed would go; it had some iron rods or something going across, and then I saw someone put another vent over that one that only had a few iron rods going across. I thought that the person who was going to sleep there would be able to hear everything that was said in the room below. Then I saw someone was putting a single bed there. I had a sense that this room was upstairs.
Another scene where I saw another bedroom, and I was surprised there was a fireplace in it. Then I was standing inside the fireplace, looking deep inside of it and saw someone (there was no one there) was barbecuing meat deep inside of it where the vent is where all their smoke goes up the chimney. I saw the meat cooking in the fire like a bonfire (like in a fire pit).
There was a scene where I was inside a bathroom and I was looking at the inside of a mirror. The mirror part was turned so that I was looking at the inside of it somehow, like it was a cupboard (the whole thing was white). Then I saw a secret compartment beside it, looking in the inside of it and saw it was all clean and white. With my hand I was feeling deep inside where we couldn’t see and I felt that there wasn’t anything there. Then I wondered how I didn’t see this storage area before. Then I was feeling like I had lived there for many years and I hadn’t seen it all that time. I wondered if Bella knew this had been there. Another scene where I saw a window, the kind of window that can’t open. It reminds me of the front window of our house on Noble Ave.
Another scene where I had half an hour to get to work. I was in the car with Lucas and Bella and I asked Lucas if he would be okay to drive home (so I could go straight to work), even though he only had his learners. We were closer to my work than we were home. He had started walking towards the drivers side when I said that I would drive (because I thought I’d have enough time to drive them home and come back again. I was comforted, knowing they would be safe at home.). As I was driving I saw the roads were icy. There was a scene where I stopped in the lane that had vehicles coming towards me, and I put the hazard lights on. I saw a few vehicles pass from the front and back, and then I started going again. I’m wondering if this represents a question that was asked of me today by DA? At first I said yes, then I changed my mind. I’m sensing that this caused me to pause in the middle of the highway, but then I started going again almost right away (Wednesday).
7:51 “The Joy of the Lord, the Joy of the Lord is my strength.”
10:04 “Your love changes everything” I have so much more peace in my heart than I’ve ever had before. I believe God has done something in my heart since yesterday, healed me in some way. I’m feeling like something is broken off of me, maybe fear? I’m sensing that I’m free from something and because of that, I have a deeper knowing or sense of Gods love for me.
1:07 In a vision I saw someone putting short pieces of thick yellow tape on black garbage bins, vaguely seeing three yellow pieces of tape.
10:15 In a vision I was making a right turn in a residential area. I vaguely saw an older man mowing the lawn, and I noticed that my windshield had rain spots on it, like it had rained and had dried without putting on the windshield wipers; because of that I couldn’t see through the windshield very clearly. As I was making a right turn, it felt like I was making a right turn to go to my voice lessons. My goal has been to practice my voice lessons every day, which I haven’t been doing.
This evening I started watching the movie, I Robot (Will Smith) with my family and thought it was neat that it was stopped when there was exactly 1:17:11 left…. I needed to finish my Bible time. Tomorrow I’m taking my mom for an appointment in preparation for cataract surgery. I’m learning to be at rest with every purposeful thing I need to do, which helps me not to rush through anything. It also helps me to enjoy the things I do.. Goodnight…
October 30: 11:43 In my heart (while awake) I heard something about a dragon.
12:08 I vaguely dreamt that I slid down a railing effortlessly. I dreamt more clearly that I was in a house and overheard someone talking about seeing a ghost; I was afraid and closed my ears. Then I jumped up and in the air I went downstairs in the air, and then I was about waist high and I paused while sitting in the air with my legs straight out, wondering if it would hurt if I landed on my bum. I chose to go for it and landed on my bum and found that it didn’t hurt. While in my prayer language at night I’m sensing the two people talking about a ghost and me being afraid represents the question that was asked about why I get so down, or depressed. I answered and said it was because of the general reason of spiritual heaviness at home. I think this is when I became afraid in my dream and closed my ears with my hands. I’m sensing to talk about the other reason I get depressed, and that is because when I sense the Holy Spirit leading and I don’t get it right.
3;37 If you’ve been forgiven, if you if you’ve been redeemed, sing this song forever to the lamb.
5:46 If you’ve been forgiven, if you if you’ve been redeemed, sing this song forever to the lamb.
I’m praying into what God means about “starting it.” I’m sensing He means starting the huddle at the beginning of the night, but I’m not sure. As I’m waiting with my mom at her appointment, I’m internally pressing into the Lord and gathering courage. I won’t let this opportunity pass… 🫰🏼
October 31: 5:37 (I think) “I’m my Fathers child and I make him proud. I am made in the image of a perfect King, … and He wouldn’t change a thing.” (I don’t remember who sings this, also not remembering all the lyrics) (I went downstairs to pray)
6:17 I had a vision of vaguely seeing someone coming out onto the street with her housecoat on, and then I saw young king Charles come out into the street, in public with his satin housecoat on.
I vaguely saw, more sensed that I had gotten new shoes. Yesterday I vaguely sensed new colourful shoelaces.
6:35 I had a vision of being in the country; it was night and I saw a light on by a house with trees.
6:43 Papa, I’m sensing that I made it…
6:44 Come, it’s done. You are Mine.
6:46 Thank-You Papa….
6:47 You’re welcome My daughter; I love you.
7:44 A dream where Wendy P was looking very joyfully at Bella and myself but more at Bella (a big smile on her face), sensing a victory and that she knew something Bella didn’t know, that I had made it?She was walking kind of around us like she was doing something, feeling like we were in an office. Then I was standing with LZ in an office that had a printer on the desk. A soft voice on the intercom came on, talking, and we heard her name. When she heard her name she paused to listen, wondering if it was meant for her. Then she continued to do what she was doing. Then I was looking into a big photocopy machine. I saw the big white role of paper. I rolled some out and then realized I didn’t need it, so I rolled it back. Then I saw that the paper was crumbled so I took it out and ripped it off, crushing it in my hand. Then I saw the paper inside the photocopier was smooth again. I will press into the Lord about the meaning. I’m sensing I need to put my testimony together (hearing a soft voice); I’ll start this afternoon.
9:49 In a vision I saw a field, and there was a cable going into it with a machine that was connected to the cable, going into the field. The cable was connected underneath the machine as it was going along.
I dreamt someone had a whole round pizza in their hands. (I’m not sure but I could have seen another person with a whole round pizza.)
11:44 “Everything I do, I do to honour you.”
I’m thinking I made it, could understand where Jesus was leading, but even if I made it, I still need to continue to follow the promptings of the Holy Spirit and follow Jesus, so this is what I will continue to do. In the beginning of the night before I asked to lead the huddle, I could feel my knees shaking, I was so nervous! But with Gods help I did it!! Then when the opportunity came to lead at the end of the night I took that opportunity… I’m at rest in my heart, knowing that I’m continuing to walk in agreement with God, Jesus…🫰🏼