“Direct my footsteps according to your word; let no sin rule over me.” Psalm 119:133
Conversation
Papa, I love You and I worship You. You are Perfect in all Your ways. I surrender to You and Your will for my life. I accept Your calling and I embrace it. Your will is what I want with all my heart.
Come My daughter.
I decree and declare that Your will, will be done in my heart and in my life. By faith I step into Your calling in my life and I believe the time is now. I trust You Papa. Because of what Jesus did on the cross for me, my life is not my own but Christ who lives in me.
Come My faithful one. I am near to you.
Reflection
Hello and welcome to my journal. Life in the valley can be very difficult, but we need to remember that God is always faithful. Right now I’m in a valley, being tested and pruned so that in God’s time I’ll be ready to walk out of this valley, Victorious. What I’ve been doing as I’m waiting is spending time with God and keeping on doing what He’s already asked me to do. I’m clinging onto hope because God is my firm foundation. God is faithful and I know that He will never let me down, and I’m going to stay faithful to Him. He has shown me His faithfulness all the time and I know His love through that. God gives me dreams and wakes me up at certain times. As you read my journal my hope is that even though I’m in a valley in my life, I hope you will be inspired to always keep your heart open to God no matter what’s going on in your life, because God is a God of Love and He always has a Good plan for our life. He knows how to lead us; we just need to trust Him and follow Him! Very often God draws my heart to Him through love songs and intimacy with Him in dreams, because as part of the bride of Christ, Jesus is my husband. My love for God/Jesus keeps on growing as I continue to pursue Him. During the night God wakes me up at certain times with either a word from Him and/or a dream. So here’s my journal entry for today..
February 13:1:07 “A thousand generations, falling down in worship, sing the song forever to the Lamb. And all who’ve gone before us, and all who will believe, will sing this song of ages to the Lamb. Your name is the highest Your name is the greatest Your name, stands above them all. All thrones and dominions all powers and positions Your name, stands above them all. And the angels cry, Holy, all creation cries, Holy. You are lifted high, Holy, Holy forever!!”
3:44 “It’s gonna be alright. It’s gonna be okay. Standing here with you, you give me Your grace. I’m not gonna let fear talk me out of, Your love for me…”
I dreamt that I met some friends that I graduated with in high school. I also saw a picture of a gradual waterfall. I was standing there just looking at it. I imagined that the rocks were like slippery steps going down. (I went downstairs to pray)
5:34 I think I saw blue and yellow together like it was the sun shining like a sunrise behind the round earth.
7:07 I saw someone with a really big smile on their face.
7:27 A dream of a vehicle with its lights on (I saw the right one (left facing me)) came quickly and stopped right in front of me, feeling like it had arrived.
7:41 FaceTime (going for coffee?)
I had a dream where I was with a group of people that I trusted and were my friends. I was looking down and noticed that I was wearing my short black rubber boots that I use for quick errands around town. I was disappointed because I like wearing my brown boots and thought I must have put these on because I had been in a hurry. While I was looking down I also noticed the shoes/boots of my friends who were with me. We were outside so I saw their feet moving on the ground.
I had a dream where I was sitting on and driving a scooter, sitting to one side. I thought I liked this way because I could go around the obstacles better.
Seeing two round red things that looked like gears, one slightly higher than the other.
8:14 I dreamt of seeing a brown chocolate wrapper like Rolo, seeing someone take a chocolate from it. I believe that as I listen and follow God’s voice, that He is leading me into the purpose He’s given me… 🙏🏻
Happy Valentines Day!!!❤️🔥
February 14: 4:23 “cover“ (I heard in my heart right before waking up)
4:24 I heard in my heart something about dancing I heard right before waking up, then I went downstairs to pray.)
5:13 “serve”(I heard in my heart while praying in my prayer language)
6:43 I heard in my heart something about dancing.
7:14 “you took the place of me”
7:25 “I am wanted, I am desired” (“I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.” Psalm 139:14)
7:29 “when you said you looked a mess…”
7:53 “tied note, black note” (music notes)
7:55 “when you said you looked a mess.” I also had a dream where I saw a lady wearing a green skirt in her kitchen. I’m looking forward to our Valentines event tonight.
February 15:1:34 mama
1:43 In a dream I saw someone on a conveyer belt, on his tummy and slipping off, even though the belt was moving forward.
1:51 My friend smiled at me and asked, How are you? She had an orange kids rock T-shirt on.
2:04 I saw bouquets of roses.
2:07 seeing yellow “it’s me”
6:48 “Answer yes”
Making a steady right turn to merge onto a highway.
7:06 Trust
8:32 “celebrated” seeing someone outside in an orange shirt, happy…
8:47 “you and I were meant to be.”The pain of the past. Love is an open door with you with you love is an open door”
8:54 weary
9:00 “finish each others sandwiches”
9:11 I heard a Christmas song about baby Jesus being born in a stable.
9:07 “50 years”
“Merry Christmas.”
10:59 “oh my soul. Praise the Lord, oh my soul. I won’t be quiet my God is alive. How could I keep it inside.”
February 16:
(February 15:11:55 “espionage”)
11:59 In my prayer language or in a vision I saw someone holding a plastic container or a box (like the size to put a small cake or desserts), I heard “we’re done?”
“I’d climb every mountain, swim every ocean.”
5:42 “Oh I need you to see, that you are the reason.”
7:11 a vision of someone leading another person to a room and when she went in, the person quickly shut the door and walked away.
7:22 I was inside and there were people walking
7:38 “a reminder that “they are loved” a dream of seeing a tiny little black bug on the counter, and for some reason this showed or was evidence that I was loved. Then I was putting my finger on another spot that looked like it could be a bug, but when I put my finger on it, I saw it was just part of the counter.
I had a dream where I was filling my cup with juice that reminds me of cranberry juice. I poured about half and I stopped momentarily, but resumed right away and filled it closer to the top. Then I thought I could fill it a bit more and filled it to where the line was, and sensed that that was good.
Feb 17: “oh I need you to see, that you are the reason”
5:37 “extraordinary magic in you”
7:12 “promises” seeing shattered glass falling (the pieces were more like clumps like the glass from a vehicle), seeing yellow and blue.
7:17 a vision of a baby a few months old
7:55 I had a dream where I was sitting at the head of the table with someone. I was filling my plate with fruit. I had a red tomato and green cucumbers and I was putting more fruit in my plate, taking another red tomato. I said to the person sitting beside me that I hadn’t taken fruit before so that’s why I was taking fruit. I saw a whole fruit of some kind and which took up my whole plate. The person beside me wanted to cut it and share it but I took it and got up, wanting it for myself. Then I was in a car, someone else was driving. While I had been sitting at the table there was someone in front of me who looked back at me a few times. I’m wondering what is the fruit that I want to keep for myself?
Then the scene changed where it was night and I was standing on the side of the road; the same person stopped me and gave me a ticket. He didn’t look legitimate so I became upset and asked to see the ticket. He said the ticket was from last June and I challenged him about it, saying I’m going to fight it because it felt like I had been set up. Then I walked back to my car and saw it was very small, like a one person car (looked like a covered scooter). I saw that I had hung it up onto a hook and was amazed that I had been strong enough to have put it onto a hook. I felt like I didn’t have the strength to unhook it. The person was behind me, watching. I sensed he also thought I was strong. Then I was crouching down, cleaning up some mess, some stuff that had fallen onto the ground from the car. As I was crouching, a small blue box fell out of my pocket that I sensed was my ticket. I looked at it and resumed cleaning up the mess and was going to pick it up after I cleaned up the papers or stuff that had fallen out of the car.
8:43 a vision of a woman with long brown hair, seeing the side of her face and seeing a green earring in her ear.
4:13 A dream of being on a boat in a storm. I saw someone in distress, on the floor like they had fallen, and someone came to help them, taking the rope or something to help stabilize the boat.
I had a quick vision or dream about seeing a big being who was smoking; it was carrying someone on its back who had their head hanging down. I didn’t want to share this because I should know better than to be led by my emotions. I think this represents that I’ve been believing a lie about myself, that I’m a disappointment. I came against it in prayer.
I made waffles, blueberry sauce and sausages for brunch today, and for supper I made a salad and potato skins and my kids dad fried steak. I also baked banana muffins for the kids for school this week. Blessings…🙏🏼
February 18: 4:22 I felt warmth in my heart that woke me up , and I went downstairs to pray and to decree and declare scripture.
I dreamt that I was with Jesus and some others. We were walking on a sidewalk. The sidewalk made a gradual left turn. I was walking behind them. Then I saw a block of chocolate ice cream that anyone could take from. We were walking to Dairy Queen so Jesus and the group didn’t take any, but I wanted some so I think I put two scoops into my bowl. Then as I was walking by myself I was a little worried that I wouldn’t find Jesus and the group; I didn’t know what the area looked like around the bend of the sidewalk. But I calmly kept walking when all of a sudden Jesus came and drove really slow right beside me, and the others were in it too. It seemed like he was going to drive right past but laughed to show he was kind and friendly. I quickly hit the windows to remind him that I wanted to come along, so he laughed and stopped for me to get in.
Then we had arrived at a place and I saw my back pack and was thinking that I had forgotten to put my wallet into my backpack. Then I thought that if I forgot it, then someone would pay for me. Then I thought one of my friends would pay for me and I had peace about it. Then the scene changed where we were in the building. I was walking what felt like the right side hallway, looking at the things that were being sold in the small rooms along the hallway. I sensed Jesus and some others had gone on the left side of the building. Then I had a small child in my arms and I came to a place like a daycare where parents dropped them off. I saw someone kiss their child (I think it was an older child who dropped off the younger child, but this is vague) and their child joined the people at the daycare, so I also kissed the child I was holding and he/she went in to join the group.
Then the scene changed where I was on a long trampoline at a trampoline park. There were many trampolines that were connected all in a straight line. I didn’t dream that I actually jumped on them but in my dream I had gotten to the last one. I had seen the last one and knew there was grass beyond the trampoline line. Then I was standing on the edge of the last trampoline (this was outside) when I looked and saw Jesus walking with someone or a few others on the sidewalk; they were walking towards the doors of the building I was in (though I was outside). Then I saw a black (with white I think) dog running with excitement to Jesus, and when Jesus saw the dog coming, he quickly bent down to embrace the dog.
“I give up. I tried” (I’m praying that I won’t feel this way)
February 19: 1:13
5:22 “can’t wrap my head around that” (You love me still; I know You always will) I heard these lyrics in my heart right before waking up. I haven’t heard this song for a long time and I know it’s from the Lord.
7:49 “The time is right and I’m holding on. I’m gonna be your number one, number one.”
In my walk with God I’ve felt like there were strings attached to his love. It’s a good reminder to my heart that God’s love is unconditional.
“Direct my footsteps according to your word; let no sin rule over me.” Psalm 119:133
February 20: 1:44 “You love me still, and I know you always will…” (Seph Schlueter)
2:58 “You love me still, and I know you always will…”
4:57 “here is where I want to stay..in your sweet embrace… I’m going all in, in over my head, I’m not scared to get lost in Your love. Wherever you go, God I will follow, I’m not scared to get lost in Your love…”
7:20 “lying ends” “spuring space”
7:24 I had a sense of being at Iryna’s house, or being on the parking lot at the grocery store by her place.
7:35 /36 A vision of Lucas taking a few steps to stand beside someone and seeing that Jesus saw and wanted that.
7:45 “noicht nicht” (German) I don’t know if the first word is even a word, but that’s what I heard. Nicht means not and night.
7:49 vision of seeing a circle and sensing going back to earth from being in space.
7:52 vision of emptying a big glass jar that had a few capsules like Advil in it, emptying it onto the counter.
7:55/56 “pay me back over a thousand dollars”
7:58 “manipulate” seeing a hard snow packed ditch and seeing lines in it like someone had used their skates to go down .
8:03 in a vision my mom offered me the rubix cube. She has one on her sewing machine table. The colours are completed, orange at the top. Yesterday I had propped up my phone on her sowing machine for the zoom call.
I had a dream where Jesus had my slippers on, stretching them, and I didn’t want them to be stretched because they were already stretched, so I wanted him to take them off. I saw there was something on the top of his foot (between his foot and the top of the slipper) that made the slippers stretch even more, and I was horrified.
Today on our way home I dreamt that I saw a thumb turning right, making circles. Then I awoke it was 9:54 and the song that was playing on k love was “God turn it around.” Blessings…🙏🏼
February 21: 4:48 “You love me still, and I know you always will.”
7:33 “You’re Carolyn aren’t you?” I dreamt I was in a store. I had bought something and was standing by the cashier. I found some kind of a card on the floor and I picked it up. It was a black card with silver printing on it. I was trying to read what it said; I read it and saw that it had the name of the degree that a student graduated with (I didn’t see it exactly but recognized it to be that).
I was in a group of people and asked over the crowd if the card was any of theirs, then when they showed interest I realized it couldn’t be there’s because it was a card that only someone who graduated from University could have (their age); so then I kept it. Then the crowd was packed and I had to follow because I was in the middle of it. We had walked out of the room and turned right when I closed my eyes and forced my way out of the crowd. Then I turned around and was walking back. I was wearing a pink shirt. As I had been walking with the crowd, I had the card in my hand and saw that the underneath part was coming off of it (it looked worn).
I dreamt that one of the someone welcomed me when she saw me. She had a big smile on her face and opened her arms for a hug, and I was so relieved and glad.
7:44
7:53 “You love me still, and I know You always will…” ❤️🔥
Feb 22: 1:00 I saw a white sunrise or sunset. It could have had some orange in it.
“You love me still, and I know you always will”
1:44 “Breaking News” (I heard this word clearly in my heart)
5:43 “Perfect” (I heard this clearly in my heart right before waking up)
7:07 In my quiet time with God I think I saw a picture of a young tree trunk, seeing the ground around it, but this was vague.
I saw a big gas station that had many areas where people could fill in gas. It had a long covering overtop and all the lights were out.
7:56 I was sitting at a table. The table had a white tablecloth and I vaguely saw it was set and filled with food. I picked up my fork; it was the most beautiful fork, shiny, silver, and heavily expensive.
8:16 “this is the last time”
8:23 A dream of seeing a circle (the size of going around a plate) of tiny green flowers with white on the top. There were millions of tiny, rich green flowers (the petals were thick), reminding me of a wreath. I was fingering them with my left hand, going around the circle.
8:36 Sense of a roaring Lion; it was like I saw or sensed the voice coming from deep inside the Lions throat and it came up and out of the Lions mouth.
8:46 A vision, seeing an orange bus parked in the parking lot with its doors open and someone running to me.
9:04 “That’s why I trust Him, that’s why I trust him. I sought the Lord and He heard and He answered..” I quick dream of seeing a black pipe curving down out of someone’s mouth.
9:20 A vision of a parent on one knee with their arms wide open and a child running into their arms.